After breakfast I went back out to the frosty air. I pulled my
cell phone out and dialed home.
Me* Hey Dad
Dad* Hey Baby, how are you?
Me* I'm okay, how are you?
Dad* I miss my baby girl
Me* I had to get out last night
Dad* I know Ry; I was just so mad that he was hurting you and I
never saw it, or made it stop.
Me* Dad you didn't know about it
Dad* That makes me feel worse because I should have known you
Me* I hid it from you. I was ashamed with myself, but, but when
you said what I thought was true….
Dad*Baby I am not ashamed with you. I could never be ashamed, or
disappointed in you. You're my daughter, my little girl. The
daughter I always dreamed of. I could never, ever, not love you.
Baby I was scared.
Me* Scared? Scared of what?
Dad* I was scared I was going to lose you. I have heard so many
stories of girls dying from their boyfriends beating them. I
don't want a call when I'm away saying my daughter is dead.
Me*Dad are you trying to tell me something other than this.
Dad* I need you and your brother to come home soon
Dad* Please? I don't want to tell you over the phone.
Me* Okay, I'll get TJ and we will make our way home.
Dad* Okay, see you soon.
Me* Okay, Bye Dad. I love you.
Dad* Love you too.
I hung up the phone and sighed. What could he not want to tell
us? I got up and slowly got up and walked back to the motel room.
TJ was sitting packing his bag after a shower. "Hey Sis, what's
"We have to get home. Dad wants us." I said grabbing my bag and
shoving my clothes into it.
"Why?" He asked grabbing my wrist. I looked up at him. He put a
hand on my cheek. I turned away from him. "What's wrong? Why do I
have a feeling that he has his orders?" I shrugged. He pulled me
to him. "It will be okay. I promise." He said rocking me ever so
"I hope I'm wrong." I whispered hugging him. He sighed.
"You're never wrong when deployment is involved." He sighed.
"I know but I can hope." I looked up at him. "Right?"
"Right." He nodded…………
We walked into the house to see Mom and Dad sitting in the living
room. You could see Mom has been crying. "We're home." He said,
even though they saw us.
"Guys we need to talk." She said looking at the two of us. "Why
don't you sit down." She said with that look in her eyes.
"You got your orders didn't you?" I asked squeezing TJ's hand.
"They came before I yelled at you last night. I have to go spend
7 months in Afghanistan." He sighed. I felt the tears start to
roll down my face. "Aw baby come here." He opened his arms. I
crawled into his arms and laid my head on his shoulder.
"I don't want you to go." I cried. He held me as Mom looked at
TJ. They left us alone.
"I know baby but I have to go." He sighed laying his head on top
"But I don't want you to go." He sighed.
"7 months means that you're going to miss graduation and when TJ
leaves…..Oh god that's even worse." I broke into sobs. "I'm
losing all of you." I cried into his shoulder. He hugged me.
"You'll never lose any of us because we are all right here." He
said pointing to my heart. I nodded at him. "And right here." He
said moving his finger to my forehead. I nodded. "I love you."
"I love you too Daddy." I sighed snuggling into his cotton
t-shirt. He pressed his lips to my head. "When do you leave?" I
asked looking up at him. He sighed.
"I have enough time to help move you, TJ, and your Mom to the new
base. But shortly after I'm going to have to leave." I stuck my
bottom lip out.
"So, how long?" I asked.
"About 10 days. We are going to start packing tomorrow. We are
moving to Virginia." He smiled moving me on his lap so be was
cradling me like a baby.
"What about Uncle Jesse and Aunt Kirsty and Uncle Ruben and Aunt
Alex? We are just leaving them here?" My eyes widen. "I don't
want to leave them here!" I started to panic. I have never been
far from Aunt Kirsty or Logan or even Sam. We stayed on the same
base together, we went on vacation together, and we even went to
the same summer camps as Logan since we are only about 8 months
apart. We grew up together. Audrey was the same, well kind of.
She was in Germany when Uncle Jesse and Dad were stationed in
Japan. But After a little while we got sent to Germany.
"Well I talked to your Uncle Jesse and he also requested the
change and it was granted, but Uncle Ruben can't come with us. He
has to stay here." I felt the tears started to leak from my eyes.
"I don't want to be away from them." I cried snuggling back into
"I know baby, but we are going to have to. You'll get to see them
soon. We won't be too far from them. We are only moving a state
over. I promise." He kissed my head.
"I don't like this Daddy." I sobbed. I was just so out of it. For
all that happened I was allowed to cry. In the past week I have
been raped, beaten 3 times, got into a huge fight with my Dad,
left to a motel, had to help my Brother after a fight because he
beat up my boyfriend, I leaned that my father was going to miss
my high school graduation, I'm moving states, and lastly I'm not
going to have my best friend with me. I was allowed to cry my
heart out. It's been a long week………..