"Hey. I missed you."
"I know. I missed you too."
"You know, I really thought… Hell, I even hoped that it'll get better with time but it doesn't. What do I do?"
"I don't know."
"Every morning when I wake up, my first thought is of you. How do I stop it?"
"I don't know."
"Every goddamn day I keep seeing your face in the crowd… I can't do this anymore, I can't go on without you, do you hear me?"
"You have to. You promised."
"I know… But I am so tired, I can't do this anymore… Please…"
"If I only could…"
I jumped up and turned around.
"Oh, sorry", she muttered. "Didn't mean to scare you… Just wanted to let you know that…" she coughed and looked away. "I'll wait by the gate, okay?"
I didn't say anything and she walked away, her shoulders stooped, hands clutching onto her umbrella. I looked up in the sky. It was raining pretty heavy by now. Weird, I didn't even realize that until I saw that umbrella in Dana's hands. I shifted my gaze back to the headstone.
"I can't do this anymore", I muttered.
This time there was no answer. Of course, I knew that the whole talking thing was just happening in my head. I am not crazy or delusional although sometimes I wish for that. Would be so much better to simply be delusional. But unfortunately for me, I am as sane as ever. I touched the cold stone with my hand and ran my fingers across the smooth surface of the picture.
"I died with you on that day", I muttered. "It's been… Six months… It's been… Yesterday…"
I knew that Dana was waiting for me by the gate. I needed to go, the rain was getting even worse. I couldn't move. I just sat there and the rain was flirting with my tears.