………………. I turned the tread mill on ignoring the looks I was given
by the people in there. Damn my phone was my lifeline and had all
my music on it. I started to run trying to push what had just
happened to the back of my mind as the speed increased and I took
stride after stride. I don't know how long I'd been running put
the sweat was dripping off me as a hand reached over and turned
off the treadmill I slow instinctively to a walk and looked at
who was holding out a towel to me Lukas cocked his head to the
"So we throwing a rock star temper tantrum" he held out the
pieces of my phone
"No just pissed with some self centered, egotistical, male
chauvinist, Russian ass" I wiped my face and picked up my water
bottle my legs were feeling like Jello I took a drink
"You want to bail on the tour?" he smirked
"Is that what you want me to do because let's face it you're not
exactly on our side are you" I put my hands on my hips half of my
brain was screaming to shut the hell up this guy cuts your check
but the other half of me was over the limit and ready to vent "I
mean all that this morning that you have the guys best interest
at heart…" He folded his arms across his chest "Please don't you
think we want to give everything we have to repay them for what
they and even you have done for us… we go out there every night
and try to better the night before to show that yes you took a
risk with us but…" he held up his hands
"Good I have first and foremost I do have to look out for the
headliners of this circus" his poker face was back "And we've had
some people in the past not want to give 150% I wanted to make
sure the passion for what you do is there"
"Don't question mine or the work ethic of my band if we ever
slack off then we'll leave"
"You've got a temper and a backbone" he chuckled
"When you've be crapped on from a great height time after time
and beaten into submission something has to snap" I walked toward
the door of the gym and wrenched it open and walked to the
elevator holding it together till I stepped inside and the doors
closed I backed into the corner and slid down the wall and broke
down, I felt like I was drowning with everything and knowing
Dimitri was off and probably with Abby was tearing me up. I
pulled m y self together as the doors opened on my floor and some
of the crew went to get in, I dropped my head and hurried down
the hall to my room.
"Hey Chris there's pizza left" Alfie called out
"I'm good I'm going to shower" I pushed the connecting door open
"Hey I know we hate to use the word but any of you geeks know
anything about mending cell phones?"
"What?" the three of them looked at me as I laid the pieces on
the table "Okay why is your cell in pieces and why are your eyes
red and puffy?" Kerion narrowed his eyes and looked at me
"I told Dimi about the tour" I leant on the door frame as Pete
picked up the pieces of my phone "And he's not happy"
"Surprise surprise" Alfie leant back and put his hands behind his
head "SO are we leaving?"
"No" I shook my head "I know I'd regret it and I can't do that to
you guys or the band" I sighed "I've got to face fact's this is
going to probably going to be the end for me and him" I swallowed
the lump in my throat "I'll see you in a while" I turned away and
walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower and let the water
run over me tears of anger and frustration spilling over. I heard
the door knock "I'm in here" I yelled
"I know but the hotel does want some water left for the rest of
us" I turned off the water at the sound of Chad's voice I got out
and pulled on the huge fluffy hotel robe hanging on the door and
pulled it open.
Sorry" I walked past him Alfie quickly disappeared from the room
"I take it you were summoned by the three stogies in there?" I
asked rubbing my hair on a towel and looking at him as Ryan
walked in as well "All of you"
"Well Mike and Dan are doing a press thing and no it wasn't your
friends it was Lukas" I groaned and sat on my bed "So I hear you
laid into him?" Ryan smothered a laugh
"Yes and I'll apologize when I see him" I groaned "He pushed the
wrong buttons at the wrong time"
"Hell the next time you do it can you call us first we'd have
killed to have seen it" Chad sat down and nudged my arm "He's a
ruthless son of a bitch where business is concerned but he's now
under no uncertain terms to back off from you ad the others"
'Big brother syndrome strikes again" Ryan winked
"Thanks… it means a lot"
"No problem and who knows if Elena will give you guys up I might
try my hand at management" Chad got off the bed "I'm not going to
ask about Dimitri, Pete filled us in but I told once before true
relationships and friends will still be there when the circus is
done" I nodded "Take what hurts now in here" he tapped over my
heart "and bring it to the stage"
"I will I promise" I smiled
"Good you want to do Burn it to the ground with us tonight?" Ryan
asked I looked at him and then at Chad who nodded
"Good" the two of them walked out the empty feeling in me was
slightly less now I was going to bring it screw Dimitri's sucky