***OKAY I REALLY COULDN'T LEAVE YOU ALL HANGING OVER
…………………. I tried to open my eyes but there was a drum beat raging
in my head I groaned and rolled over. A chink in the curtains
gave the room enough light for me to see that it wasn't mine.
What the hell happened last night? I moved my hand to my face
where my mouth felt raw. I sat bolt upright as the images of me
kissing Chad in the elevator ricoched into the fore front of my
mind. I put my head on my knees.
"Coffee" I jumped at the sound of Chad's voice I felt the heat
rise in my cheeks
"I'm not here" I groaned into the covers
"Okay coffee and Advil then" I felt the edge of the bed dip as he
sat down I peeked up at him. He was sitting wearing one of the
hotel robes his hair wet from the shower "It'll help I promise" I
lifted my head slowly.
"Okay can I ask something?" he nodded "Where am I ?'
"Paris" he pushed his tongue into his cheek and smirked
"You're in my room" he got up and pulled back one of the curtains
letting in more light. I looked round my dress was over the back
of a chair. I looked under the covers, sighing that I still was
wearing my underwear "You sort of passed out on me" he sat back
"I sort of passed out?" I furrowed my brow
"Yes and The three stogies were in no fit state to make sure you
were okay so being the gentleman I am I brought you here"
"So we… I mean how did I get… who?" I struggled to find the right
"Marie" he chuckled "Ryan went and got Marie when I brought you
back here and she got you out of the dress and we put you to bed"
the wave of sheer relief washed over me
"SO we didn't…"
"No" he smiled "okay one I'm 36 you're 18" both of us shuddered
"Two, yes I kissed you back when you kissed me I had one of those
'damn I have a hot girl right here' moments hell I'm a man" I
sipped at the coffee and felt the blush again "But Chris I love
you" I choked on the coffee "Like I love my brother… only I'm a
little more protective over you"
"I'm sorry" I put the cup on the nightstand "I shouldn't have
"No you shouldn't" he sighed "But and I'm not justifying
anything, you were hurting, that was all too obvious all night.
You can't hide much Chris" he did the same as the night before
catching my chin in his fingers
"I'm as bad as he is"
"I'm not going say either way because I could have easily taken
advantage of you, hell I know guys that would have even with you
being passed out. You need to talk to him about it and admit what
you…" he stopped and corrected himself "we did"
"I don't even want to talk to him" tears pricked my eyes "I have
a life that he can't handle…"
"And he's scared he's not good enough for you" Chad moved closer
to me and turned to face me "Chris Dimitri is one insecure guy…
I've known his Mom for at least 10 years now and she talks about
her family a lot when we're away" he sighed "Niko is the positive
one that has no trouble with confidence"
"Dimi's the same"
"No he likes to come across that way Chris come on you've seen
him at his worst and how he'll put up a defense when he's scared,
pushed into a corner or just doesn't like the situation"
"How do you know all this?" I narrowed my eyes
"Like I said Elena talks about her boys" he chuckled "and for a
guy to get up on stage and do that poem he did to you back in the
"I can't talk to him yet" I maoned "all I see is him with her
after I trusted him"
"Okay you want me to talk to him?"
"Hell know he'd flip" I flopped back against the pillows "I've
fucked up haven't I?"
"No you just have to learn how to make everyone happy at the same
time as keeping yourself happy" he got up "I'll go grab you a
robe" he dropped a kiss on my head "Remember you have four big
brothers if you need us…" he walked to the door of his room and
turned round "Just no more kissing okay" I pulled the pillow over
my head as he laughed walking out. He was right I had to learn to
juggle everything if I wanted and right now it was a slim want ,
to have Dimitri in my life… even if he would want me after I'd
sucked face with Chad Kroeger…………………