***just a quickie because I love ya and I'm going up the
wall not getting on to write PMSL***
……………….. I opened the door to my room, the sound of snoring
resonating from the mounds under the covers of two of the beds in
the room. I pushed the connecting door Alfie was making coffee he
turned and we both looked at each other awkwardly for a moment.
"You want a coffee?" a smirk spread across his lips as he turned
back to the coffee pot and I put my shoes and dress on the bed
"and are you trying to get back at Dimi?" I groaned and sat on
"No I've had a coffee and I don't know" he sat on the other bed
and cocked his head to the side.
"Right you show up wearing one of the hotel robes carrying the
clothes that you were wearing last night…"
Jeez Alfie you're worse than a woman" I sighed he ignored me
"And you have razor rash on your face" he leant forward and stuck
out a finger at me 'All round your mouth…" he narrowed his eyes
and bit his lip "So who've you been sucking face with?"
"Chad" Alfie spat a mouthful of coffee everywhere
"Okay Chad the catering guy with the pot belly and bad comb over
or Chad as in Kroeger?"
"Yeah I really go for guys at least 20 years older than my Dad" I
got up and walked to the window
"Damn Chris you knocked boots with Chad Kroeger"
"Okay the more times you say his name won't change… hey whoa I
didn't all we did was kiss" Alfie opened his mouth to say
something "I was so mad with Dimitri and with the alcohol" I
turned to face him and leant against the window "I don't know why
but I kissed him in the elevator and he kissed me back we ended
up in his room after I passed out"
"But he didn't… I mean he could…"
"No nothing happened other than the kissing I'm sure of it" I
smiled "He got Marie to come get me out of my dress I think he
even slept on the couch"
"Wow knocked back by a rock star" Alfie whistled "He's not Gay is
"Dude" I walked over to him and Gibbs slapped him "He could have
taken full advantage I literally threw myself at him but he
didn't and in the light of day I'm glad… he's too much like a big
brother to… and know he's not gay"
"He's 18 years older than you" Alfie chuckled.
"Okay enough with the analyzing what happened to me last night" I
picked up a photo from the dresser from when we'd gone up to the
top of the Eiffle tower "Damn Alfie we have everything right now
and I feel like I'm losing everything"
"You want to go home?"
"No… Yes… No" I threw out my arms "No I'm not going to give up on
my dream… our dream" I looked at him "I won't do it to myself and
I won't do it to you guys… I need to talk to Dimitri" I opened
the dresser and pulled out jeans and a hoodie
"But after the picture he sent" Alfie shook his head as I headed
to the bathroom
"I know but I'm going to be the bigger person and tell him what I
did last night".
I showered quickly and pulled my hair into a messy bun. Alfie was
in the other room talking to Pete. I took my purse from the bed
and left the room, I curled in one of the overstuffed arm chairs
in the lobby and took a deep breath as I hit the speed dial
number for Dimitri my hands shaking a little as I waited for the
Dimi* it's 3 in the morning, you'd better have a good reason for
Me * sorry I forgot the time difference
Dimi * Chris… It's okay… I thought… well I thought you were… What
do you want?
Me * to talk
Dimi * okay
Me * there's a few of things first I got the picture last night
from Reba and If that's what you wanted couldn't you have just
ended it with me? and what does Abby think?
Dimi * what picture?
Me * the one of you and Reba half naked
Dimi * there was a picture!?
I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose
Me * I got mad after that and I…
Dimi * are you sure there's a picture?
I groaned and pulled the phone from my ear and sent him the
Dimi * oh well…
Me * Dimitri I kissed someone else last night
Dimi * say what?
Me * I kissed Chad
Dimi * you kissed Chad Kroeger
Why was it the guys wanted to say his name in full this morning
Me * yes. Like I said I was angry after seeing the picture and we
all went out after the gig and well I kissed him
Dimi * he good in bed as well Chris?
Me * All we did was kiss I'm tryi9ng to be honest and tell you I
screwed up and made a mistake
Dimi * you can say that again
Me * oh but it's okay for you and Reba to get into it but I
readily admit what I've done and…
Dimi * no but he's your Boss… is that how you got the extension
Me * Hey you're Mom is my Boss and really
Dimi * I thought after Arron you wouldn't be so quick to bed hop
Me * Gee thanks for that… I was in two minds as to calling you
but I thought I wouldn't lie and cover anything up but shows how
wrong that choice was. People are right you are a sad insecure
guy that doesn't like not being in control… I was so in love with
you and I miss you like crazy but I've been controlled before and
it ended in pain and heartbreak and the loss of a baby I can't do
it again Dimitri… We're done
Dimi * why so you and the old man sorry CHAD can…
Me * NO so I don't have to keep hurting. I don't want… didn't
want anyone other than you… but I have the chance of a lifetime
and I'm going to be selfish and not give that up to be a dutiful
girlfriend and follow you where ever because I was heading to
Madison for college while you were wanting Miami
Dimi * you never said
Me * I know I was scared that you'd… would you have gone to
Dimi * hell no I don't like the cold anymore I thought you'd have
come to Miami
Me * see you wouldn't even entertain moving with me but you'd
expect me to change where I was going
Dimi * Miami is more fun and that's what would have had to happen
for us to be together
Me * it doesn't matter about college now.
Dimi * I guess not
ME * thank you for being there and being someone I could lean on
Dimi * I guess… well have a good year and I'll see you around
ME * maybe… bye Dimitri
I hung up the phone and got to my feet and walked out of the
hotel and down the street, tears threatening to spill over. I had
no idea where I was going but I needed to let the hustle and
bustle of Paris sweep me along……………………………….