…………………. I walked down the hall with Pete and to the breakfast
bar in the hotel Kerion and Alfie were already there pouring over
a song they'd started to write just before we left the US. I
grabbed a bagel and sat down with a huge cup of coffee.
"You put make up on to sound check?" Alfie grinned
"Hey I want to feel human I think the jet lag's beginning to hit
me hence" I tapped the side of my coffee cup "and anyway you
stole my eyeliner"
"No I didn't"
"Oh yes you did I found it in your bathroom next to your
toothbrush" I took a bite from the bagel
"So how was Dimitri?" Kerion asked stopping the light argument
before it really got started.
"Okay not happy about going to school without me but" I shrugged
"Lets hope Abby and Reba don't start… Ow god damn it Pete why are
you kicking me?" Kerion pulled a face and rubbed his leg.
"Because I think you should think once before opening your mouth"
I sighed getting up. I tried hard not to think of Dimitri's ex
and her hell bitch of a sister. On stage I was untouchable I felt
untouchable but off it to many things had happened to knock me
down leaving me wide open and vulnerable.
"Guy's the cars waiting" Lukas put his head round the door I put
a lid on my coffee and grabbed my bag from over the chair and
walked out with him leaving the guys at the table.
"Jack ass you had to mention those two didn't you" Alfie snapped
as they waited for the next elevator
"I didn't think" Kerion groaned
"Dude you saw the state she was in after that Arron guy did what
he did" Pete shook his head "She trust very few people and we're
four of those people and you say shit like that about the guy
she's in love with"
'I know" Kerion hung his head as Elena hurried to them and got in
the elevator with them
"Boy's are you ready?' she grinned her eyes twinkling
"Yes Ma'am if he stops pissing Chris off" Alfie nodded and nudged
"Okay what you do to her?" She looked at him
"Opened my mouth without thinking" he sighed
"Then you need to talk to her and say sorry you've got to live
together for the next month at least…" she trailed off and the
three of them looked at her.
"What do you mean at least?" Pete asked.
"Nothing slip of the tongue she dug into her bag and pulled out
her cell and dialed a number "You boys go" the doors of the
elevator opened and she hustled them out. I was sitting in the
car talking to Lukas as the guys got in
'Finally" I smiled
"Sorry the elevator took forever"
"You guys nervous?" Lukas asked
"Nervous, excited scared. Terrified" Pete laughed "I think that
about covers it"
"Good it's the way it should be what you guys are doing some
people only dream of"
"I know it's still so crazy what and how this all happened" I
looked out of the window as we drove through Manchester "How
we're in a different country and we're about to be on stage in
front of thousands" my hands were shaking and clammy the more I
thought about it Lukas laughed
"You look like you want to throw up?"
"I do and this is just sound check" Alfie butted in We drove into
the back of the MEN Arena and got out there was a hive of
activity, roadies pushing cases and boxes around unloading and
setting up the sound of shouting from guys rigging as the
lighting was put up along with the speakers I felt a tug on my
sleeve I looked round at Kerion
"Can I talk to you?" He pulled me to the side while the others
went up onto the stage Alfie taking his Guitar from one of the
Roadies "I'm sorry for even mentioning Abby and Reba, Dimi loves
you and he's not going to screw that up for anything and I think
Xander and Niko would kill him" I smiled at the thought of my
Cousin and my boyfriends twin going off on him
"I know I guess having a long distance relationship is one thing
but touring and trying to have one is a whole different level" I
linked his arm as we walked up the steps to the stage "I'm
relying on you guys to keep me sane same way you're relying on
"So we're good and you forgive me?"
"Nothing to forgive" I hugged him he pulled drum sticks from his
pocket and I took the microphone that was held out to me
"Remember what I said I want Side of a Bullet" I jumped as a hand
was dropped onto my shoulder.
"Jeez really are you trying to scare the crap out of me" I looked
round at Chad
'Sorry I didn't think" he shook his head
"It's okay… you want the whole song?"
"Oh yeah" He nodded taking a drink if whatever was steaming in
the cup in his hand "Don't hold back we need to make sure you're
voice is back to how it should be" he walked back down the steps
I stepped out onto the stage the arena empty in front of me apart
from people setting up Chad walked out into the middle of the
floor where the sound desk was "Whenever you're ready guys" I
looked at the other and waited for the guys to start. The Beat
and the bass pounded through me as I started to sing such a guys
song putting my twist on it. My voice pushing the song and the
song pushed my voice as I automatically moved round the