................ I wrapped my arms round myself as we watched Niko and Dimitri get into a cab Chad rested his hands on my shoulders and squeezed them
“You’re one hell of a person Christine Sommers” he sighed “I don’t think I could be that good to someone that’s hurt me as much as he has with you”
“You wouldn’t turn away your Ex” I looked at him
“I would and I have” he shrugged letting go of me and pushing his hands into his pockets as we walked back inside. ‘You can hurt me once but never come back to do it again” he looked across at me “hard faced I know but it’s the way I am”
“Better not piss you off then” I teased pushing him a little
“You know I think you could get away with pissing me off and I’d still be there kinda like when my mom pisses me off” he laughed
“Oh Great I remind you of your mother” I groaned pushing open the dressing room door “18 and you make me feel like I’m what 90”
“Hey she’s not that old” he laughed
“You are” I ducked behind Lukas
“Children stop it” he moaned “manage to get a gift” Chad and I looked at each other both looking like kids caught stealing cookies
“Er… we… er” I stumbled
“No we didn’t” Chad said quickly “So my turn on rock band” Pete walked over to me
“Are you and he…? you know”
“No” I laughed “I went to see Dimi and Chad came with me” I pulled him aside
“You went to talk to him Chris are you stupid” Pete held out his arms
“He didn’t know about Reba, Elena took him away when she found out and she threatened Niko would live in Russia as well if he told his brother” I looked at Pete “Dimtri’s a mess over this”
‘And do you think he was giving to flying fucks about your feelings when he was screwing her” Pete shook his head “Stop being so nice Chris… we love you but seeing people walking over you is killing us”
“They’re not anymore” I felt my lip quiver “I swear to you I’m cutting people from my life” he narrowed his eyes
“Who did you call before going to bed last night?”
“My dad… all I got was the machine but when you guys go home I’ll be staying at a hotel” I said quietly
‘You can stay with any of us you don’t need to do that”
“None of you has seen your family for 2 months and I guess you’ll all be having a Christmas deal I’ll see Jess and I’ll be okay” I smiled at him He sighed “you think I can get a hug?”
“Sure” he nodded pulling me to him “We’re as good as family you know that?”
“I know but I’m not going to intrude and I’m going to give myself a gift”
“What?” he laughed letting go of me
“Something I’ve dreamt of since hearing it” I patted his cheek “Hey Lukas can I borrow your Laptop?”
“Sure as long as you don’t go changing the screen saver for one of someone’s ass again” he sighed “I still want to know who it was”
“Kellan’s ass” Mike called out
“How did you get a photo of Kellan’s ass?” Chad laughed looking at him “Do I have to tell Mom you’ve been experimenting again only this time it’s not pot”
“Shut up” Mike swatted his brother “Blame Chris” he looked at me “You sort of sent it to me as well as Miranda and Heidi” I groaned and flushed beet red
“Please don’t send it to anyone else” I begged “you didn’t get the other one as well did you because I swear I didn’t send it”
“No just the one of his ass and I really don’t think I need to see the other one” Mike pulled a face I walked out of the room with the laptop and went and sat on the stage leaning against the drummer riser My phone vibrated in mypocket
Me * yep
Jess * hey
Me * hi how was school?
Jess * good… Why did you yell at Daddy?
Me * I didn’t
Jess * I heard you shout at him and I heard the message on the machine
Oh god that had been the last thing I wanted
Me * Jess I’ll explain one day I promise but right now you won’t understand
Jess * I’m not a baby Chris
Me * I know that but sometimes adults have to keep things to themselves for a while
Jess * Daddy’s gone to work away for the week I’m stopping with Xander
Me * you’ll have fun with Aunt Marie
Jess * Chris I don’t’ want to live with him anymore he doesn’t come home from Wednesday till Sunday and when he does he’s too busy with football stuff to take me to cheer practice and dance and swimming
Me * Oh honey I’m sorry… I should be there
Jess * no you’re a star I love my sister is a star none of the kids pick on my anymore
Me * Oh Jess I’m so sorry
Jess * Don’t Mom and Dad love us Chris
Me * Of course they do they just don’t show it very well.
Jess * Did you have a baby?
Me * What?
Jess * I heard Dad talking to Aunt Marie and say you were pregnant
Me * No I didn’t have one but that’s why we don’t talk to Arron anymore
Jess * When can I come and see you again?
Me * Spring break… Heidi’s coming out here so I’ll ask her if she can bring you with her
Jess * will you talk to Daddy and see if I can live with Aunt Marie
Me * I’ll talk to Aunt Marie okay
Jess * Okay you still can’t come here for Christmas
Me * No sweetie I can’t
Jess * okay… I love you and I miss you
Me * I love you too
The phone went dead
“Here you are” Alfie sat next to me “We have a sulking rock band back there” he laughed “We wiped the floor with them with their own songs…” he trailed off “What?”
“My sister doesn’t want to live at home anymore because she thinks our parents don’t love us” I looked at him “What can I do?”
“I don’t know she could come with us we have the tutor” I shook my head
“I can’t drag an eight year old round with us come on it’s rough on us the traveling and the hours” I ran my fingers through my hair “God” I lay down and put my arms behind my head “Talk about a damn roller coaster ride”……….