..................... I stretched and rolled over looking at the
clock and sat up quickly 12.35pm. I got out of bed and walked
into the bathroom and splashed water on my face and pulled my
hair back in a bun. There was a coffee on the nightstand that
felt like it had been there a couple of hours I picked up the cup
and walked down the stairs. I could hear the sounds of talking
from the Kitchen. I leant on the wall to listen… okay eaves drop
"We've got calls in to her lawyers to try to force a meeting"
Lukas was there
"This is getting beyond a joke" Mike added to the mix "I'm ready
to pay someone to get these ass holes out of her life"
"I think we need to take more that the next 12 days off" Chad "Lu
any chance of getting at least another week… hell tell them I've
got a throat issue and we'll tagged the 4 dates in Tokyo on at
the end… she's going to crack and nothing we can do is going to
stop it she needs time hell for that sake Kerion, Pete and Alfie
need more time as well"
"I'll make some calls" Lukas tapped away on his laptop.
"Have you seen TMZ this morning?" Dan sighed "They were trying to
track her down and even we're trying to get in Kellan's face
"So who knows she's here" Lukas questioned
"Just us, I don't know if she told the others but as far as I
think they know she's holed up in Seattle" Chad answered "Her
purse is still on the table and it's been ringing and beeping
most of the morning"
"You could have answered it" I walked into the room Ryan fell off
the stool I'd made him jump so much. "And why didn't one of you
wake me up"
"You needed to sleep" Ryan laughed "and it's his house" he
pointed to Chad so that's his job
"So did you sleep okay?" Chad asked taking the cold coffee and
throwing it before pouring a fresh one instead.
"I can't remember getting into bed" I smiled.
"I heard" I wrapped my hands round the warm coffee cup "We can
carry on we don't need to changed any dates"
"Chris we do we've lived this crazy assed life for years we
forgot how much it takes out of you" Mike said shaking his head
"Just an extra week to work on the album and not have to deal
"It's happening Chris" Lukas smiled at me his phone started to
ring "Lawyers" he got of the stool and walked out of the room as
my phone beeped again I walked over to my bag and pulled it out
and sat on the couch and began scrolling through the messages
"Okay isn't that the t-shirt I got you for Christmas?" Mike
looked at Chad and said it quietly Chad nodded. "So?"
"So what… there stuff's stuck in Toronto she needed something to
sleep in" the others all looked at each other and laughed "Oh
knock it off" he groaned. I walked back over to them and put my
phone on the counter and hit play on the voice mail.
***Pregnant at 16 did you even know whose it was… I'm ashamed to
call you my daughter… and the fact I even used you for a
character makes me sick tarnishing Stephanie with a reputation of
a little slut like you… and what did you do with the baby go to
some back street clinic to get it removed so you could move onto
the next waiting guy… And as for a law suit don't make me laugh
Christine I can bury you if you try to put a stop to my work… why
I ever bothered being such a caring mother to you and Jessica is
beyond me right now you're both ungrateful bitches at least Jess
stands a chance not like you selling yourself to anyone to get
where you are***
The message ended and the room was silent apart from the tick of
a clock. I chewed the inside of my cheek trying to keep myself
from crying and looked down at the granite of the counter tops
the flecks blurring in front of my eyes.
"Chris" Mike had got off the stool and had come behind me his
hands resting on my shoulders
"That woman is supposed to be my mother" I mumbled "Maybe things
like this are genetic… Her Mother turned her back on here when
she met my Dad. There's a pattern starting" I roughly wiped my
eyes on my hands "I should thank Arron for the beating he gave
me" I looked round at the guys "At least I'll never be able to
hurt my child like that" Lukas walked back in the room and looked
round as I broke down Mike pulled me to him as Chad threw my
phone to Lukas
"Listen to the message and tell me we're going after this bitch"
He almost growled Mike put his hands over my ears as the message
"Oh we're going after her with all guns blazing now" Lukas nodded
"Chris looks like time for another new phone honey" I looked up
"Again?" I sniffed
"Yep" Ryan nodded.
"Hey Why don't you go and take a long hot bath" Chad suggested
"there should be a robe on the back of the bathroom door" I
nodded I didn't know what I wanted to do right now I felt
worthless yet again. "This is going to end"
"Chris we'll sort it out" Lukas assured me as I walked out of the
room and made my way back upstairs. I sat on the window seat that
looked over the mountain in the distance and hugged my knees so
"Hey" I jumped and looked at Chad
"I'm going out for a couple of hours" he stopped at the end of
the bed "Treat the house like your own no one can get in unless
it's me or you let them in" I nodded "Call me if you need me
Lukas has stopped incoming calls for now till we get you a new
"We've called the people that need to know where you are and
Kellan said to give you this" Chad walked over and dropped a kiss
on my head "and said something about go and dance" I had to smile
at that "Oh good I'm glad you got what he meant" he walked back
to the door "go soak in the bath it'll help" he closed the door
leaving me with my thoughts. I got up and walked to the bathroom
and started to fill the over sized tub as I puled the t-shirt off
over my head my underwear following it as I stepped into the
steaming bubble filled water I put my I-pod on the side and
turned it one drowning out any chance of a thought in my