……………. My body was still tingling as we lay in Chad's bed our
limbs entwined my head on his chest while my mind was trying to
work out what had just happened.
"You okay?" Chad murmured against my hair
"Yeah" I nodded. I leant up and looked at him "was it wrong?"
"Probably" he smiled tucking a piece of hair behind my ear "but I
couldn't carry on without touching you" he rolled on his side to
face me "I didn't ask you to come here just so I could seduce you
and get you in my bed"
"Oh that's that theory out of the window then" I teased
"Chris I'm serious… I've tried so damn hard since we started to
tour and we got to know you to keep a certain distance from you
and just be a friend… it killed me seeing you hurt over Dimitri
and when you kissed me that night in Spain it was a knee jerk
reaction and I knew it that's why nothing happened" I rolled back
onto his back and put his hands behind his head "Then you just
needed a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to and that was
fine and Kellan made you happy and made us see the real Christine
Sommers" I felt the color rise in my cheeks as he mentioned
Kellan I looked at the sheets "Hey" I looked back at him "You
don't really think I'd tread on someone's toes do you especially
someone that could probably break me" he laughed
"You've spoken to him?"
"You sort of figured that out when I took you dancing it was his
idea" I groaned and put a pillow over my head I felt his weight
shift and the sheet move from round me as the pillow was taken
away he was looking down at me smiling.
"I'm not out to hurt you or use you Chris and if this isn't what
you want then we can put it down to one of those nights" his blue
eyes were full of truth and fear "I feel like a high school kid
that's just got to first base with the cheer captain"
"Okay I'm way from Cheer captain " I touched the side of his face
"I wasn't going out tonight to hit on you and I need to thank
"Yeah because we'd have been thrown out or arrested if we'd of
stayed in the club" I trailed my hand down the side of his neck
and down his chest "I didn't know it could be like this" he
smiled at me and bent and kissed me.
"Does that mean you're staying here tonight?" I nodded "So if I
did this" he began kissing down my neck and working his way down
with light butterfly kisses. My stomach tightened as my back
arched and my hands pressed against the back of his head my
fingers knotting in his hair…………………
………….. I walked in to the room with two cups of coffee.
"I thought you'd changed your mind" Chad sat up and took a cup
from me I clinbled on to the bed
"No I needed coffee" I wrapped my hands round the cup
"You look cute in my shirt" he leant on one arm and took a drink
of his coffee
"Well it was either you're shirt or the dress I wore last night
to go make coffee" I smiled
"I'll call today and see if we can't get the cases that we're
"I need to take a trip to a mall or something?"
"Even when my things get here, I don't have anything suitable to
go toe to toe in a room with my mother" Chad raised an eye brow.
"You want to go?"
"Yeah I need to say a few things" I nodded fighting to keep my
emotion in check "And I think jeans and a tee won't cut it and my
stage gear… well that plays into her warped mindset of me" I ran
my fingers through my hair 'I know we were going to start on the
album but I have to do this maybe you guys can work with Alfie
and the others while I'm in Seattle"
"You really think they'll want to work knowing what you're doing"
he sat up and put his hand over mine "Even if you're in there
with Lukas and the Laywers we'll all be close"
"I don't deserve you or the others" I chuckled
"Okay talking like that will only get you in trouble" he smiled
"Sounds promising" I laughed putting my cup on the night stand.
His phone still n the vanity in the bathroom was ringing as I
pushed him back on the bed………………..
………….. "Okay Lukas is pissed" Chad laughed as he walked in the
kitchen as I made breakfast
"Why?" he's getting bombed with calls from the press about us
"Oh I can't wait to see what my phones going to be like" I
"Oh and Mike called he'll be hear round lunchtime with your new
phone" I handed him a plate and a fork "You cook?"
"Yeah" I laughed and turned away to load the dishwasher "I had to
when Dad was never home for dinner Jess and I needed to eat" I
wiped my hands on a towel "You don't mind do you?"
"Hell no hey you want to call the others and get them round for
dinner we'll both cook"
"Fine by me" I sat down as he ate
"Can I asked you something?" he sat back in his chair "It's
something I think I heard right a couple of days ago and you can
tell me to shut up or mind my own business"
"Just ask" I shrugged
"After you played the message from your Mom" I nodded "you said
something about thanking Arron for beating you" I closed my eyes
I knew where this was about to go and it was something I'd tried
not to face. "You were talking about thinking it might be a
genetic thing with way your Mom is and..."
"And at least I'll never be able to hurt my child like that" I
opened my eyes and looked at him "You catch a lot" I walked over
to the window and lifted the blind a little the Mountain was
shrouded in fog.
"The day that Arron found out I was pregnant and he dragged me to
his and beat me and pushed me through a window he kicked my 6
times in the stomach" I swallowed and tried to control my
breathing "When I was found and taken to the hospital I was
taking into surgery because of the internal damage they'd found
on an ultrasound. They had to take away my uterus" I leant my
head on the window frame tears forcing their way through my eye
lashes "I'd been kicked hard enough for it to tear in two places"
I took a deep breath "I'll never be able to hurt my child like
I've been hurt because I can't have a baby"…………………………