................... I stopped on the pathway and took deep
breaths of the January air.
"I didn't mean to make you cry" I felt Chad's arms wrap round me
and hold me.
"You didn't" I shook my head "facing the nine guys in there that
have held me together and still love me and singing that song to
them for them was more than I expected" he rested his chin on my
"The song was amazing, and I want to hear it again" I turned in
his arms and looked at him "and I'm happy to help rewrite your
love song" He rubbed my cheek with the back of his hand.
"You're having a big part in that right now" I nodded
"Let me record it and send it Kellan" I raised an eyebrow "Hear
me out" he took off his jacket and put it round my shoulders "I
know what he did for you how he made you laugh" I nodded "and
he's the one that told me I should go for it with you"
'You knew" I nodded
"He called me to tell me that he was sorry for treading on your
toes and that I must have been blind not seeing the way you
looked at me" Chad started to laugh
"He's a good guy and a good friend I think he deserves part of
"Okay… you're okay with it?"
"I suggested it and I'm still amazed that he let you go and the
fact he's ten times hotter than me and you're here in my arms, in
my bed and not trying to work it out with him" he bent his head
and brushed his lips against mine.
"I think it has to do with the fact I love you" I swallowed as I
said it he'd told me at least three times today and I hadn't said
it to him till now.
"I so want to kick everyone out of the house now" he chuckled
"Well you sort of asked the guys to stay so I thing the noise
level might have to be toned down" he walked me back toward the
"Me I think you'll find it's you" he teased opening the door for
………………. "We have a plane waiting to take us" Lukas paced the
"Chris wants the drive to clear her head" Chad shrugged
"But it's a short flight"
"It'll be a short drive I've been with here on winding roads"
Chad laughed as I walked in the room
"So do I look as far from a rock star as I can get?" I asked
putting my purse down
"Damns hot personal assistant" Mike laughed "all you need is the
"Hey that's my girlfriend" Chad threw an empty bottle at his
'Good" I sighed
"Your shaking" Pete put his hands in mine "Lukas has told us you
don't have to do this"
"I know I don't but I need to"
"We have a plane waiting at the airport to take us" Lukas rubbed
"I'm taking the McLaren"
"I told them" Chad sighed
"You going with her?" Lukas looked at him Chad nodded "Okay you
have to be there by noon" he handed me the paper with the address
"and drive safely" I hugged him
"Chris" I looked at Dan "We all love you remember that" I smiled
"Thanks" Chad put his arm round me and walked out with me
"You need me to drive or are you okay"
"I'm okay it'll keep my mind occupied" he tucked a stray piece of
hair behind my ear
"I tried last night" he chuckled
"No that was trying to expand my mind" I opened the door and got
"Did it work?"
"Well when you get the post fixed on the end of the bed we'll try
again" I knew he was trying to make me smile and it was working
with images of the night before running through my head but there
was an underling feeling of dread.
"It wasn't designed as a pole" he laughed
"Hey you're idea and I have a bruise the size of Lambeau Field on
my ass" I pulled out onto the high way with the Limo containing
the other following
"I'm sorry" he rested his hand on my leg I looked in the mirror
at the limo and hit the phone button on the console
Alfie * what?
Me * you see us?
Alfie * yep you can't mis that car and by the way my Porsche is
going to blow you away
Me * yeah keep talking and watching.
I flicked the indicators so they both flashed and then flicked
the paddles on the wheel and touched the gas pedal
Mike * Fuck that's fast
Alfie * show off
Lukas * okay you get pulled by the cops and it won't look good
and you'll be late
Me * okay I'll behave
Lukas * Chad can't you drive?
Chad * nope she won't let me
Me * have a safe flight
I hung up
"Okay I think you just scared the ass off of Lukas"
"I'm sorry I want to get there get it doen and get home" Chad
"You called it home"
"I feel more at home there then I have in my own home for years"
I shrugged "I'm sorry I'll give it some thought about where to
buy a place when the tours done"
"Oh so this is just a 9 month roll in the hay then?' He poked my
"No… well I hope not" I felt sick now "Not for me… I mean if
"Chris shut up" he groaned "I wasn't meaning it like that I meant
why look for a place if you're at home here"
"What in the car?"
"Oh god" he started to laugh "You're head really is on another
planet isn't it?"
"Today" I sighed "Yes"
"Okay don't worry about it" he lent across and kissed my cheek
making the nerves shoot up tenfold. The drive to Seattle was easy
I pulled down the ramp into a brightly lit parking garage under a
huge sky scrapper Chad and I got out. "I'll walk you in" He put
his arm round me as we crossed the floor to the elevator
"I wish you could be with me" I said fidgeting from one foot to
'I know but" He lifted my right hand where the ring was sitting
and kissed it "You have me with you in here" he tapped my head
"Here" he tapped my heart "you look beautiful nothing like your
Mom is trying to make you out to be" the bell chimed as we
reached the lobby Lukas was standing with two guys I'd seen a
couple of times working out contracts and things like that. We
walked over to them
"You made good time" Lukas smiled reassuring me I just nodded
Chad turned me to face him and kissed me long and deep.
"I love you and Lukas knows where we'll be when you're all done"
"I love you too" I managed to get out Chad pulled me close
"Remember how it felt to fuck with the press in Spain" He
whispered in my ear I nodded "Screw with your Mother the same
way" I felt a tug on my right hand I looked down as he put the
ring on the opposite finger "She's losing the plot while you're
soaring with friends and people that love you" I closed my eyes
and breathed him in.
"Chris we have to go" I felt Lukas's hand on the small of my
back. I stepped back from Chad and took a deep breath. Chad
pushed his hands into his pockets and watched as we walked away
and got it the elevator…………..