……….. Lukas wrapped his arms round me as I broke down. I felt him
moving me out of the elevator my heels clicking on the cement
floor of the parking garage.
"You did it" he said softly as he lent me against the McLaren He
wiped my eyes on the Sleeves of the Armani suit he was wearing
"You stood up to them and showed them you weren't going to be
pushed around" I looked at him "You shut them up and you took
control" I wrapped my arms round myself and shuddered "I think
you need you guys don't you?" He rubbed my arms and kissed my
forehead but you're going to have to trust me to drive" he looked
at the McLaren and smiled.
"I might be a wreck right now but hell no" I pulled the key from
my bag "Thank you"
"not being the total Dick you first were when we met you" I
hugged him "Thank you for having my back in there"
"Hey no need to thank me I care about you and the rest of Never
West as much as I do for Nickelback" he walked me round to the
drivers side and opened the door "And there was no way in hell I
was going to see your parents try to destroy you… and are you
sure I can't drive"
"I let Chad because well he needs a better car then the one he's
got and two well I'm not telling you the second reason" I got in,
Lukas got in the passenger side. "I do have one more thing to
ask" I pushsed the engine button sending life through the car in
a surge of noise.
"Anything" Lukas was grinning at the interior of my car like a
kid in a candy store
"What you heard in there… I don't want people knowing" I pulled
out on to the street as he directed me to the Seahawks Stadium.
"About not being able to have a baby?" He became serious
"Yeah… it hurts so much I don't want to think about it"
"Okay but we might have a problem with that" I skidded the car to
a halt at a red light and looked at him fear gripping me what if
mom had already found out somehow. "You know how all the guys
hated not being there" I nodded "my phone was on Chad had asked
me to call him so they could hear what was happening… I'm sorry
"It's okay" I pulled away from the lights part of me feeling
better that they'd been listening to what happened part of me
dreading facing them feeling incomplete. I flicked the gear and
weaved in and out of the traffic
"You'll get a ticket at this rate and it's the next exit" I eased
up on the gas and pulled down the ramp
"Why are we at a stadium?" I asked pulling up with a bunch of
Limos and trucks that were being off loaded.
"The guys are using what's happened today to take in a Kid Rock
show so I can guarantee we that there is a poker game going on
somewhere round here and the whiskey is flowing" Lukas opened the
door "You okay or do you want a few minutes"
"I'll take a minute" I rubbed the back of my neck
He patted my hand and got out I watched him walk away before I
put my head on the wheel and lost it again. I felt the cold
draught of air as the door opened and the pull as Chad pulled me
up into his arms and held me tight. One hand nestling my head
into his neck as the sobs shook me. I think the realization
finally hitting me I had stood up to them face to face and said
things that needed to be said. Chad moved and took my face in his
hands and kissed the tears that stained my cheeks.
"I'm so proud of you" he smiled at me. "We heard everything"
"I know" I managed to get out
"None of the guys are going to say anything about how it ended"
he reassured me "I did tell them the story" I tried to look away
but he wouldn't let me "Chris it doesn't change who you are to
any of us none of them will look at you any differently"
"You think it's over?"
"All the crap?" I nodded "I hope so because you need a break from
"I just want to get back to singing get back to dealing with just
the press trying to get pictures of the two of us and I want to
"Well we can make all of those things happen" he kissed me with
more urgency and passion then ever leaving my gasping and wanting
more. He pulled back "Come on Alfie is wiping the floor with
everyone at poker… Bob's pissed about it and there's a bunch of
guys that are waiting to give you a hug" He put a protective arm
round me and held me tight as we walked back to the dressing
rooms. Lukas was talking to Pete and Mike as we walked in.
"Way to kick ass" Ryan got up and walked over and hugged me
"Yeah Chris I think anyone needs to think twice about messing
with you" Kerion Laughed high fiving me "Oh and the girls want
you to call them and tell them what went down" I nodded
"Can we get back to doing the album now the drama's done" Alfies
called over the guys all looked at him "She knows I'm kidding"
"Yes we can"
"Chris someone I want you to meet" Chad turned me. OMG OMG OMG I
was face to face with Kid Rock, and my make up must have looked
like shit… no wait it was waterproof thank god.
"Finally" he laughed "This guys been biting his damn nails while
you were gone and you're parents suck" he poked Chad in the ribs
I started to laugh
"Oh you have no idea"
"Hey Chris you have to do it" Mike walked over
"Do what?" it felt so good to be back here with them and nothing
was different I shouldn't have doubted it Mike held out a pair of
black rimmed glasses
'Dude" Chad groaned
'Oh come on we had the debate on the plane." Mike held out his
hands "The stages of hot"
"Dear God" I shook my head
"We all know you're hot as hell when the FMB's come out on the
stage" Pete laughed "I think the entire Marine Corps will vouch
for that" I looked at Chad who just nodded so no help there
"And then there's the whole Damn shes hot she's wearing my shirt"
Kid Rock Laughed sitting back down and picking up the fat cigar
from the ashtray
"Don't encourage them" I begged
"Yeah but then there the whole hot Secretary and Chris you're
wearing that today" Kerion laughed
"Give me the Damn Glasses because you won't shut up till I do it
"Nope" I put the glasses one.
"See" Mike looked at Chad
"No that's Sexy school teacher" Chad bit his lip I turned on my
heel and looked at him pulling the pins from my hair "Oh Damn I
owe you a grand" he groaned glancing at Mike. "If you'll excuse
us for a while" Chad pulled me from the room. "You want to go for
something to eat" he chuckled as we hurried from the dressing
room "I have the key to the room where Mikes staying