……….. Lukas wrapped his arms round me as I broke down. I felt him moving me out of the elevator my heels clicking on the cement floor of the parking garage.
“You did it” he said softly as he lent me against the McLaren He wiped my eyes on the Sleeves of the Armani suit he was wearing “You stood up to them and showed them you weren’t going to be pushed around” I looked at him “You shut them up and you took control” I wrapped my arms round myself and shuddered “I think you need you guys don’t you?” He rubbed my arms and kissed my forehead but you’re going to have to trust me to drive” he looked at the McLaren and smiled.
“I might be a wreck right now but hell no” I pulled the key from my bag “Thank you”
“not being the total Dick you first were when we met you” I hugged him “Thank you for having my back in there”
“Hey no need to thank me I care about you and the rest of Never West as much as I do for Nickelback” he walked me round to the drivers side and opened the door “And there was no way in hell I was going to see your parents try to destroy you… and are you sure I can’t drive”
“I let Chad because well he needs a better car then the one he’s got and two well I’m not telling you the second reason” I got in, Lukas got in the passenger side. “I do have one more thing to ask” I pushsed the engine button sending life through the car in a surge of noise.
“Anything” Lukas was grinning at the interior of my car like a kid in a candy store
“What you heard in there… I don’t want people knowing” I pulled out on to the street as he directed me to the Seahawks Stadium.
“About not being able to have a baby?” He became serious
“Yeah… it hurts so much I don’t want to think about it”
“Okay but we might have a problem with that” I skidded the car to a halt at a red light and looked at him fear gripping me what if mom had already found out somehow. “You know how all the guys hated not being there” I nodded “my phone was on Chad had asked me to call him so they could hear what was happening… I’m sorry Chris”
“It’s okay” I pulled away from the lights part of me feeling better that they’d been listening to what happened part of me dreading facing them feeling incomplete. I flicked the gear and weaved in and out of the traffic
“You’ll get a ticket at this rate and it’s the next exit” I eased up on the gas and pulled down the ramp
“Why are we at a stadium?” I asked pulling up with a bunch of Limos and trucks that were being off loaded.
“The guys are using what’s happened today to take in a Kid Rock show so I can guarantee we that there is a poker game going on somewhere round here and the whiskey is flowing” Lukas opened the door “You okay or do you want a few minutes”
“I’ll take a minute” I rubbed the back of my neck
He patted my hand and got out I watched him walk away before I put my head on the wheel and lost it again. I felt the cold draught of air as the door opened and the pull as Chad pulled me up into his arms and held me tight. One hand nestling my head into his neck as the sobs shook me. I think the realization finally hitting me I had stood up to them face to face and said things that needed to be said. Chad moved and took my face in his hands and kissed the tears that stained my cheeks.
“I’m so proud of you” he smiled at me. “We heard everything”
“I know” I managed to get out
“None of the guys are going to say anything about how it ended” he reassured me “I did tell them the story” I tried to look away but he wouldn’t let me “Chris it doesn’t change who you are to any of us none of them will look at you any differently”
“You think it’s over?”
“All the crap?” I nodded “I hope so because you need a break from it”
“I just want to get back to singing get back to dealing with just the press trying to get pictures of the two of us and I want to laugh again”
“Well we can make all of those things happen” he kissed me with more urgency and passion then ever leaving my gasping and wanting more. He pulled back “Come on Alfie is wiping the floor with everyone at poker… Bob’s pissed about it and there’s a bunch of guys that are waiting to give you a hug” He put a protective arm round me and held me tight as we walked back to the dressing rooms. Lukas was talking to Pete and Mike as we walked in.
“Way to kick ass” Ryan got up and walked over and hugged me
“Yeah Chris I think anyone needs to think twice about messing with you” Kerion Laughed high fiving me “Oh and the girls want you to call them and tell them what went down” I nodded
“Can we get back to doing the album now the drama’s done” Alfies called over the guys all looked at him “She knows I’m kidding”
“Yes we can”
“Chris someone I want you to meet” Chad turned me. OMG OMG OMG I was face to face with Kid Rock, and my make up must have looked like shit… no wait it was waterproof thank god.
“Finally” he laughed “This guys been biting his damn nails while you were gone and you’re parents suck” he poked Chad in the ribs I started to laugh
“Oh you have no idea”
“Hey Chris you have to do it” Mike walked over
“Do what?” it felt so good to be back here with them and nothing was different I shouldn’t have doubted it Mike held out a pair of black rimmed glasses
‘Dude” Chad groaned
‘Oh come on we had the debate on the plane.” Mike held out his hands “The stages of hot”
“Dear God” I shook my head
“We all know you’re hot as hell when the FMB’s come out on the stage” Pete laughed “I think the entire Marine Corps will vouch for that” I looked at Chad who just nodded so no help there
“And then there’s the whole Damn shes hot she’s wearing my shirt” Kid Rock Laughed sitting back down and picking up the fat cigar from the ashtray
“Don’t encourage them” I begged
“Yeah but then there the whole hot Secretary and Chris you’re wearing that today” Kerion laughed
“Give me the Damn Glasses because you won’t shut up till I do it will you”
“Nope” I put the glasses one.
“See” Mike looked at Chad
“No that’s Sexy school teacher” Chad bit his lip I turned on my heel and looked at him pulling the pins from my hair “Oh Damn I owe you a grand” he groaned glancing at Mike. “If you’ll excuse us for a while” Chad pulled me from the room. “You want to go for something to eat” he chuckled as we hurried from the dressing room “I have the key to the room where Mikes staying tonight”……………………..