……………….. I sat down opposite Dimitri and wrapped my hands round
the coffee cup. I could feel him watching me, William walked
"You think you might want to try out the voice a little?" he
asked leaning on the back of Dimitri's chair.
"Sure" I nodded. "I'll go take a shower… I still haven't done
that yet" I shuddered a little remembering that I didn't even
remember getting into bed last night. "Excuse me" I got up and
walked out of the restaurant.
"You want to still go there?" Dimitri asked Niko in a low voice.
"She doesn't want us to"
"I don't really care he crossed the line once too often" Dimitri
looked down at his cast.
"Dude she's made a police report" Alfie said putting down his
fork "You guys go there and beat the living shit out of him and
then what… the cops look at it less because he's been beaten my
Chris's EX boyfriend and his brother" Alfie couldn't help but
emphasis the ex as he looked at Dimitri. "Let the cops deal with
"Spoken like the son of a policeman" Pete chuckled from across
"Yeah well" Alfie smiled a little "don't you think we should be
worrying more about Chris and trying not to screw her over again"
"Are you done?" Dimitri looked at Alfie
"No… Why did you come here Dimitri?" he turned in his seat to
look at him "I mean don't you think you did enough to hurt her…
telling Reba of all people about her life… telling her you only
told her you loved her to get into her pants?" Alfie was on a
roll he'd never been a guy to stand up to the Jocks before. "I
might be selfish right now but if you screw her over again and
ruin her… our shot with the chance we have it shows you're no
better than the scum that raped her" Alfie got up from the table
"I think I lost my appetite".
"Alfie" Dimitri got up and ran after him catching up to him by
the elevator "Alfie"
"I'm sorry" Alfie raised his eyebrows "You want me to admit I'm
the words second largest douche after Arron then I admit it I am"
Dimitri held out his hands "You think I let her go because I
don't love her" he sighed "I lied… I led because I'm stupid… I
led because I was feeling like I was going to be left behind… I
fel..." Alfie held up his hand
"Don't you think I'm the wrong person to be telling… if you're
sorry you need to grow some balls, man up and tell her the truth"
Alfie snapped "and then let her decide what she wants" the
elevator doors opened Alfie got in "but think about what you're
going to say and control your temper… right now she deserves to
be a bitch" the doors closed leaving Dimitri standing in the
……………….. I pulled on my jeans and a hoodie and pulled the brush
through my hair catching sight of the bruises on my neck. I
turned away from the mirror as my phone rang.
Me * hey Jess.
Jess * I tried calling you last night and you didn't answer
Me * I'm sorry, I was stuck doing some stuff
Jess * are you singing today.
Me * I think so in a while we all just had breakfast… so what are
you doing today?
Jess * Mom's taking me to get a haircut and then to the mall to
get some new clothes and then I'm having a sleepover with my
Me * wow, you sound like you're going to be busy
Jess * I know and I'm going to try out for the swim team
Me * nice
I heard the other door open and Alfie leant on the door frame to
the connecting door and smiled at me.
Jess * can I call you later?
Me * you know you can and leave me a voicemail if I don't pick up
Jess * I will… Chris I miss you
Me * I miss you too, Love you.
Jess * Love you
The phone went dead as she hung up I sighed and put my head down.
"that was hard trying to act normal when talking to a seven year
old" I looked back at Alfie.
"I think I just got away without getting the crap knocked out of
me" he chuckled.
"I sort of went off on Dimitri and told him what I thought of
him" I smiled at him.
"I don't know what to do about him?" I got up and put my phone on
"You're still in love with him aren't you?"
"I can't help it. How can you love someone and hate them at the
"I don't know" he shrugged "but don't jump back in without
thinking about first" I nodded. The room door knocked I walked
over to it and pulled it open Elena was standing there. "You guys
can come to the arena with us all now for a sound check and see
how you're voice is holding up"
We left the hotel the cool air making the Florida boys shiver
"Jeez how the hell do you live in the cold?" Pete groaned as we
got on the bus to take the 5 minute trip to the arena
"This is still warm" I laughed it felt good to have people know
and not make a fuss "Give it another few weeks and then you'll
need to put on a jacket"
"I want one now" Kerion said pulling a face.
"Oh I think we need to come to my parent's cabin in January and
then you can feel true cold" Dimitri was on the bus sitting at
the back with Niko and Elena talking in Russian his eyes kept
flicking back to me. I turned away and put my earphones in to
listen o our songs again…………………