April 4, 2007

I thought I should keep a journal of this. I have seen the same guy in my dream twice now. He calls himself Jeremy. I thought it was a silly first name. I introduced myself as Rosella. Funny that I would use my middle name rather then my first but you never know what stalker could be hiding in your dreams. In my dream this time we were swimming. He looked hot for a sixteen year old with his blonde hair, tanned skin, and blue eyes. I almost thought for a second that he was an angel. Unfortunately he proved me wrong. “Angels,” he told me, “would know your name. I had to ask for yours.” I started laughing. We splashed water at each other until I felt I was near waking up. I told him goodbye and he kissed me. On the cheek but it was a kiss none the less. I told him to meet me back in my dreams at nighttime. “Alright Rosella see you later,” then I woke up. I think he is my soul mate. Why else could we connect through our dreams?

April 5, 2007

He came back just like he promised. This time he met me by the ocean at sunset. We whispered our secrets and are dreams to each other. “If you could have anything you wanted in the world what would it be?” I asked him. He was silent for a few seconds. Then he replied.

“That’s way too simple Rosella. I’d be sitting on a real beach with you in my arms,” I scooted over to him and put my head on his chest as we watched the sunset over the horizon of the ocean. Soon the purple, orange, and yellow disappeared to reveal a midnight blue with tiny glowing specs. We counted the stars one by one. I pointed to a shooting star that was wagging its golden tail in the sky.

“Quick make a wish,” I told Jeremy. He smiled at me.

“I wish that I would meet you for real someday. I might not remember you but I can tell we have something special dream or no dream. Ah. I got to go. It’s morning,” Jeremy groaned. He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. Then he was gone. I sat on top of a rock in my silver bikini until I woke up. All the time I was thrilled. Jeremy likes me silver hair, purple eyes, and all. I hope Alex won’t be too upset by this.

I flipped ahead a few pages to the week my dream boy Jeremy and I lost contact. It was only 3 heartbreaking entries but I had to read them.

May 6, 2007

I met Jeremy in a lush green park today. It was beautiful. Blue skies, white fluffy clouds, clean fresh air, it was all breath taking. Too bad it was just a dream. Jeremy and I sat down after a few minutes of walking around. I had to tell him something. Something that I knew was going to break my heart. “Jeremy you know I really like you but I can’t have a relationship with someone that I might never ever meet. There is this boy named Alex I would like to give a relationship a try with. Are you mad at me? Promise you won’t leave,” I almost started crying.Jeremy looked hurt but he understood.

“I understand. Rosella I could never be mad at you. I really like you too but I made a wish. We will meet someday. I promise. Until then I want you to be happy. That’s all I want Rose. That’s all I really want,” he looked me in the eyes and kissed me. This kiss didn’t feel like all of the others. This kiss was filled with sadness and tears.I wrapped my arms around him. I couldn’t let him go but this was my decision. It isn’t his fault I am damn insecure about a relationship that only exists within a dream. He let me go and dug through his pocket. Once he found what he was looking for he handed it to me. It was a black rose with two silver thorns on its green stem. I admired its beauty.

“This black rose represents a promise. I promise you Rosella I will find you outside of this dream world. My rose to you represents that,” a single tear rolled down my cheek. Jeremy started to walk away from me. “I won’t break my promise Rosella,” Jeremy disappeared. When I woke up I was clutching the black rose with silver thorns in my hand.

May 7, 2008

My dream was strange. Jeremy and I were talking about our favorite novels (Jeremy’s is Treasure Planet) when the scene suddenly changed. In the new scene we were running for our lives to escape the molten lava traveling after us. I took Jeremy’s hand and together we ran faster and faster.We had almost made it to safety with Jeremy tripped. I fell down with him I got right back up. I tried to pull Jeremy up with me but he wouldn’t move. “Go without me. Remember me and my promise. Never forget,” I started running. I didn’t want to leave him but the stern look on his face meant he wasn’t joking. I turned around long enough to see the fiery red lava devour Jeremy. Then I woke up in a cold sweat and began to cry. Jeremy was dead. I would never talk to Jeremy or laugh with Jeremy or touch Jeremy. My world came crashing down with that one little dream. My relationship with Alex just isn’t the same as the one I had with Jeremy. I wish I wouldn’t have left him. The lava could have killed us both and we could have been together forever in eternity. I sat on my bed and cried for most of the day. Hopefully I see him in my dreams tonight.

May 8, 2008

I dreamt I was in a big pool of darkness. Jeremy did not appear in the dream. I killed him. I am a murderer on top of being a horrid monster. I can’t sleep and I refuse to eat anything. On the last page of this journal I will draw a detailed color sketch of Jeremy. He deserves to rest is peace whoever he was in real life. Jeremy must rest in peace for he was a great person and a wonderful friend.

I felt a few tears roll down my cheeks. I had really liked this guy. I thought I had made him up. I felt a hand on my shoulder before I could turn the page. “Are you ready to go to dinner now?” Kataro asked me. I nodded my head. I wasn’t sure where we were going. I just couldn’t wait until we returned back home so I could see Jeremy’s face once and for all.