Surrounded by sparkling candle light, soft music plays as a couple lay in bed kissing...

The room is beautiful because he made it this way he wanted it to be special and romantic.

"Hey, you ok?" Matt asked his lips still on mine. All I could do was node. I was feeling so many emotions all at once, respect, importance, loved, wanted, needed, love, but the one that screamed out; the loudest of all was doubt!!! My brain was on over drive. I love Matt I want him to be my first so why in this time, in this second, in this moment am I in doubt? My brain like clock work echoed what I had known since I walked in the room "you said you would wait!"

I pulled back immediately. "What’s wrong? Did I do something...?” Matt asked concern in his beautiful electric blue eyes. I couldn't look into them and say what I was about to. "No you didn't it’s me I, I can't do this." He took my hands in his and kissed them.

"I know." He says still holding my hands to his lips. Water settled in my eyes, I was about to cry. Why was he so sweet and gentle and kind to me?                           "Hey don't cry, I said I would wait until your ready if your not it no big deal." I looked up at him now on his face is a smile that could melt an ice cap. I smile back at him, he kisses my nose and hugs me to him. "I can wait, we’re in no hurry. When your ready gimme a call I'm your guy!" I laugh at this.                                                    "That sounded cheesy." he says laughing too.
"A bit...But it’s the sweetest cheesy thing anybody has ever said to me." I say still hugging him.

His phone rings he gets up from the bed and walks to his desk. He picks up the phone smiling at me.
"What can I do you for?" he says in such a Matt way.                                                                                                                                                                                                            "Err sure we could come, But I have to check if the Mrs is up to it." I know his talking about me. He gives me this playful wink that only Matt could pull off. I smile at him. He puts the phone down and sits next to me. "How does a party grab  you?" he asks.                                                                                                                                      "It doesn’t! But you could go I don't mind." He looks at me trying to guess if I’m joking or not. I want him to go he needs a break from me, after what I have just put him through "You sure?" Is what he asks.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “It would be good to go, but we could always have our own private party here." He says with a smile to die for on his face. I couldn't help but smile back.                    "Yes I'm sure! Go have fun and tell me all the details tomorrow." He gets up picks his shirt up off the floor and puts it on. I couldn’t help but stare at his perfect Abs. When his head is through the shirt I turn away. He grabs his keys, phone, and jacket. "You sure?" he asks again. Yes I nodded. He walks out his bedroom door. Five seconds later he walks back in. "Did you forget something?" I ask. He walks over to the bed and leans over me.
"Yeah! I forgot to give my baby a kiss." He brings his soft, sweet lips down on top of mine and we are kissing, at this moment I don't want him to go. When he pulls back I just smile up at him, how could you not be in love with a guy like that? “You sure you will be alright? Cause I will be back in 2 hours or less. Call me if you need anything or you get scared." he says smiling. "I will be fine."
He kisses my nose, says "I Love you." and walks out the door. "I Love you too!" I say loud enough for him to hear. I hear the door shut and I know his gone. I lie on his bed and fall asleep.