Isiah and Ryan

Chapter Two: Isiah

Thoughts reap

Torturing

Lacking sleep

Haunting

Dizzy circles

Breathing

Crazy world

Tragedy

No one has answers. Nurses, his mom, and even Ryan himself.

I feel distant, I feel gutted. I wish for happiness, I wish for solution. I've failed, I can't help him, or fix this. My heads caving in, it's a good thing I'm already at the hospital, because I just may pass out, too.

I won't though. I have to stay awake for Ryan. He looks so sad in the hospital bed. I never noticed how sickly skinny and ashen he really was until now. He looks so fragile, like a baby.

They said he'll be out soon, but this isn't the end of the problems. There's cuts on his wrist and he's really stressed, there's a reason. I don't even know if I want to know the reason. It scares me.

Ryan turns around a little in his sleep and just that is enough to make me rush to his side. I scooch him over and lay next to him. He's pretty cold, but I wrap my arms around him. Pretty soon his breathing lulls me into a sleep.

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" 'Saiah... wake up" I heard it distantly, like it was a dream, but I was sleeping. I had to be, and the sound wasn't from there.

I flicker my eyes open, much against my bodies will. Ryans looking at me all dazed, his eyes droopy on his angled face. It would be the cutest thing I ever saw, if he wasn't sleepy because he's ill. I lightly grip his jaw bone, caressing the soft, pale skin.

He frowns, whatever he sees he doesn't like... but he's looking at me, in my eyes. I don't want him to feel bad, I just- I kiss his forhead, because this whole situation has me lost for the right words. He hugs my torso as hard as he can. He's colder than usual, which I didn't think was possible considering he's always freezing.

Suddenly, the door cracks open. "Ryan" Barbie says breathless. Her eyes are all wide, and now Ryans are too.

"I'm sorry I was being so mean. I can't believe you're in the hospital. Oh my gosh, I'm so fucking sorry" she rushes forwards and hugs him, and he chuckles. I scooch over, it's sort of uncomfortable cuddloing someone who is hugging someone else. "Opps, I was interupting you guys, just when I heard that you're here, Ry, I freaked out!"

This time I'm laughing, too.