To the best of my knowledge, if I am born without you, I can live
without you. This is what I tell myself everytime I wake up,
and face another day without you. There was a time when I
thought all my hope, faith and strength would be lost without
you. But little did I know, that you were the one holding me
back. You know how people say, "It stops hurting when you stop
It's true. Every single thought of you just makes me numb now,
there is no feeling left. You have successfully killed,
I fought so hard to hold onto. Loving you was never easy. Life
was never easy. If anyone ever tells you that life is easy,
or that the struggle isn't real, I grant you one free punch to
the jugular. Because I know what it's like, to have life
personaly escort you to the gates of hell, and slowly watch your
strength give, your faith starve, your inhibition die right
before your eyes, and have it beat you to the core. And then
watch you wake up, another day, to do it all over again.
If anything I've been a dreamer my entire life. When I'm left
alone with my thoughts, it is so easy to get lost in a world,
rules of this life don't apply. Where it's easier to find love
with your heart and not with your eyes. I used to say, "one day I
will run away and not come back, and mean it," but as time
carried on, I realized, sometimes you need to get lost, in order
I'm a mess of goregous chaos, and you can see it in my eyes, an
enthralling heart that has been told it's wrong too many times.
And even though I have not one clue who I am, I know, I am meant
to stand out, and be a leader of a crowd.
My name is Shaine Asher.