Ch, 15 The Young and the Hopeless
"Are you?" I asked Kylewhile we stood in his front porch one Saturday night. The night was dark and eerily quiet. No one was outside and no cars drove by. The air was cold and dry which made me regret not bringing a thicker cardigan.
"Who told you?" He asked me back. He seemed pretty mad now, it was because I found out sooner than he probably wanted.
"That's besides the point Kyle, so tell me are you?" I was confused and felt betrayed. This was not something you don't tell your girlfriend.
"Yeah" he said simply. He looked me inthe eyes and his expression changed to despair.
"When were you going to tell me? The day before" I whispered. Tears threatened to fall, and I no longer felt angry, I felt helplessness. He touched my cheek softly and tucked a loose strand of hair in the back of my ear.
"When I felt ready" He said and matched my volume. "I know I should have told you"
"You left me out in the cold. Are you just using me right now, then? I'm just some girl you can fuck before you leave" I told him angrily gradually raising my voice.
"No! No, no" He said and grabbed my chin. "It's not like that" He wiped the tears that fell and pleaded with his eyes.
"When do you leave" I said coldly.
"Next month" I took a couple of steps back and my back touched the railing of his porch. "I signed up for the marines a while back, before I ever met you"
"But now--you didn't tell me!"
"I know" He came closer to me and tried to hug me but I hit his shoulders so he wouldn't get close to me. Tears fell and fell, I punched his chest repeatedley. He grabbed my arms and pulled them to a halt. He managed to hug me so tightly that I couldn't move.
"I won't see you anymore"
"That's not true. I'll come back in a few months, I promise."
"It won't be the same though" I whispered to his neck. And it wouldn't. He would be at some camp, and then eventually go to a different country. I would be here at home and eventually go to college.
We wouldn't be the same.
*oh gosh, I know it's short, but heyI updated! Thanks for sticking with me:]*