Okay, so right now I feel really guilty. I've been seeing Kyle after school for the whole week, and although nothing has happened I want something to happen. What kind of girlfriend am I! I'm terrible, I haven't even told Michelle about him, I've deprived her of gossip. And you want to know the worst part, I act like nothing has happened around Jake. I still make out with him, I still hold hands with him, hug, him, flirt with him, my feelings for him have not changed.
I'm just very confused. As I sit here in Kyle's couch waiting for him to come with a glass of water from the kitchen, I ponder on thoughts about Jake. The reason I'm here at Kyle's house is because he begged me to come watch Star Wars with him since I haven't seen it.
"Here" he says and hands me the glass of water. I sip it carefully not really enjoying the non existent taste.
"What's wrong" He asks as he sits next to me and grabs the control remote.
"Nothing" I pause searching for the right words. "Just thinking"
"Well, stop moping. You're dragging me down" I force a smile and watch the TV screen come to life. I see big yellow letters come to the screen telling a story about an empire all while hearing that classic Star Wars music.
"Can't believe you've never seen it"
"I know. I'm lame"
"Hardly" he says and I turn to look at him and I realize his arm is around me. I look into his blue eyes and for a moment I don't hear the Star Wars music playing, and Kyle and I slowly move closer together closing the gap between us. I involuntarily close my eyes as our faces begin to get really close, and I suddenly feel his lips crash onto mine. His lips are smooth and soft, and at first the kiss is slow and steady, but then he begins to pick up the pace and my hands begin to travel to his hair. I move my body to a more comfortable position and he turns his body to mine. We start kissing furiously and my hands get lost in his hair. His hands hold my waist and our breathing becomes ragged and heavy. He picks me up and takes me to the counter where he sets me down, I wrap my legs around his waist and he moves down to my neck. But then I stop. My legs fall from his waist, my hands stop touching his hair, and he follows suit.
He stands there looking at me and I look down at my hands. What did I just do!?
"Well you've messed up my hair" he says. I look up at him and smile, oh those eyes of his, how they hypnotize me.
"Sorry" I jump off the counter and walk back over to the couch. "Aren't we going to watch the movie?"
"Yeah, but then you attacked me" he says as he slumps in the couch. Star Wars was still playing and I begin to pay attention to it. It ended up being a good movie.
"Honey, I love you" he whispers to my ear as we make out in his car.
"I love you too" I tell him. Which is true, I guess. I do love Jake. He starts to nibble my ear and I can't help but to giggle.
"You like that don't you" he says teasingly. I laugh harder and I nod. Today, Saturday, we went to go see a movie at our local theater which I have no idea what it was about, since all we were doing was making out.
"Okay Jake lets get out before I take advantage of you" I joke
"I wish you would" Even though Jake and I have been together for 6 months, we have yet to have sex, and he hasn't pressured me about it which just made him all that better. We step out and walk hand in hand to a fifties theme diner two cities away from my house.
"I've never been here" I tell Jake as he opens the door for me and makes me blush. The floors are checkered with white walls and red tables, there's a mini red and black jukebox on every table, and the waiters and waitresses are dressed fifties themed.
"Me neither" he says to me and a waitress approaches us.
"Table for two?" she asked us. We nod and she walks us to a table and hands us our menus.
"What are you going to order?" Jake asks as the waitress takes out a notepad and pen.
"Cheese burger" I have never been shy to eat around Jake, we've always been comfortable with each other.
"Sounds good. Two cheese burgers please"
"Coming right up" the girl says happily.
"So how's school?"
"Well" I start, preparing him for what's coming. "Our coach told us we'll be staying until 6:00 everyday, our Thursday meeting for the environmental club has been postponed, this Sunday I'm going to the coastal clean up with my rotary club, and I think I'm going to change the debate team meetings during lunch two days a week and Saturdays instead of three days a week and Sunday."
"Maybe you should slow down on the clubs, I hardly see you now-a-days" That immediately reminded me of Kyle. Great, should I tell Jake of Kyle now. I think I should.
"Jake, I have to tell you something--"
"Your orders are ready" I hear a familiar voice say and I quickly look up to see who it was. Kyle. In a fifties get up. I see his smirk unfold on his lips and I just stare at him in awe. He sets our orders down at the table.
"What are you doing here" I hear myself say. Woops, major slip up!
"Excuse me, Ms.?" he asks innocently and I see Jake eyeing me carefully.
"Uhm never mind, thought I knew you"
"Wait, I know you, you're that girl that's president of all those clubs, the school kiss ass"
"Hey don't talk to my girlfriend like that" Jake tells him standing up.
"Sorry man, didn't mean it in a bad way" Jake slowly sits back down.
"watch your tongue next time" Jake tells Kyle
"Watch your face" he says bored.
"What, man? You got a problem?" Jake says rising again.
"Yeah, I just can't understand how a girl like her goes out with a guy like you" Kyle starts smiling and I just sit there not knowing what to do.
"What do you mean by that!" Jake yells clenching his fists
"It's just that--"
"Okay stop!" I yell standing up furiously. "Kyle please leave, Jake sit down"
"So you know him?" Jake asks
"Better than you think" Kyle smirks when he said that.
"Kyle! Jake let's go please?" Jake follows me to the cashier and gives her a twenty and we leave the restaurant. Great. How am I going to explain this to Jake now. But I sure know I won't tell him the truth anymore.