Please, Ease My Pain.

I don’t know why I was so surprised in the first place. I mean when I thought about it wasn’t much to my amazement. Brooke was like a train ride; everyone has been around at least once.

“Wha-what are you talking about?” I stuttered looking at Brooke then Joey.

Everyone in the café was looking at us like we were crazy, some even taping it.

“I’m pregnant.” Brooke stated.

“No shit, but how? I thought you said you were done with her?”

Joey shook his head.”I was, but then Brooke called me like two weeks later and said she was pregnant. That night when you came to my house and Brooke was over, we were sitting down talking about what we were going to do and how we were going to tell you.”

“What he said.” Brooke chimed in.

“You shut the hell up you whore! And you… you didn’t even think to tell me! What about my god damn feelings? Did you ever think about what I would think when I found out?”

“Kim, you better lower your voice.”

I shrugged.”Why should I? Were in public Joey, what you want to do this right now in front of everyone?”

“Kim—“he grasped my arm but I pulled away. I must admit for someone who just got beat down like a bum, I had some major balls to snatch away from him like that.

“Don’t touch me! And you...” I looked over at Brooke. “Don’t go around screwing anyone else’s boyfriend.”

I stormed out the door pulling my hood over my head to knock back the December chill. What on earth was I going to do now? The worse had just happened, Brooke’s pregnant, Joey is abusing me, and Landon won’t talk to me.

I was lonelier than I thought.

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“I have to admit, from what I’ve heard I’m impressed.”

I just sat there looking at her like she was an idiot.

“You my dear have managed to scare away your other therapists and been very successful. Well, let me just say that you have met your match now.”

“Look old lady I don’t know who you think—“

“Look Kim you are going to be quiet because if you don’t I can put in that police report right now.” I frowned.”Oh yes dear, you’ve been harassing us therapist for a long time now. Besides whom will they believe? The educated therapist who’s helped numerous of people or the youngster whose being abused by her boyfriend?”

“You know nothing.”

She cocked a half smile.”I know more than you think I do. See, you are young and wreck less, you don’t think when you go around and pick these nut cases. It’s your hormones darling, it gets us all. Now you and that boy have had a beautiful relationship until suddenly he lays his hands on you, and not once, not twice numerous of times. You’re scared to run away because you think he might harm you, and you’re afraid to leave him because you claim you love him. You don’t want to talk to me because you think if you see a shrink then something has to be wrong with you. Am I right so far?”

I just stared at her and didn’t say a word.

“Right, and you have this rude and disrespectful attitude because you’re keeping your guard up for anyone who wants to actually give you help. You’re afraid that if you tell on him, he might get in big trouble and you don’t want that. I can’t really blame you because your parents haven’t really been active in your life as I presume. But your mother is concerned enough to bring you here every once in a while so you can have someone to talk to. Yet, you are turning us down every time. This is all true and correct me if I’m wrong but you don’t have any problem Kim, you are just well… dumb.”

“And I’m not saying you’re mentally disabled, I mean it in a way as in you don’t know anything but you think you know everything. What I can’t get into my head is; you’ve seen the shows with the women getting domestically abused by their boyfriends and what happens if they don’t get help. Why aren’t you trying to save yourself, do you want to die soon?”

“I-I.”

She didn’t let me reply.” Kim honey you are too smart to let such an asshole takeover your life like this. Yes I said asshole anyway you are also to pretty to let him damage your face like this. Love hurts but it doesn’t hurt like this. No man puts their hands on a woman point blank period. You of all should know this. Now in all these cases there’s at least someone who is actually trying to get you out of your situation. Tell me about this person.”

I opened my mouth but nothing came out so I straighten up my body and cleared my throat.”Well I have a friend who is trying to help me, he is—“

“He? It’s a he, ok never mind continues.”

I looked around the room and continued.”He won’t return my calls because he had rented us a suite at this hotel so I can clear my mind but I left that same day we got there because I thought Joey might do something harmful to himself…”

“You feel for his trap just like he knew you would.”

“… but I want my friend to know that I actually thought he might do something to himself so I don’t see why he is mad.”

She took her glasses off her face. “Honey he’s mad because you blew him off just to get hit in the face again and he’s trying to do you a favor. You need to let me help you alright? Now, I hope you have a nice day but right now I have lunch. See you next week.”

She looked down at her calendar and started writing and I got out my seat and walked out the door.

The first time I didn’t storm out after being rude to my shrink.

She was good, and she knew it.