Sirens whooping, policemen running, paramedic’s rushing, and my screams and cries that did nothing. Riding in that ambulance, crying as they tried to keep him alive until we arrived at the hospital safely. The sounds of the hospital doors opening, the screeching of the bed rolling down the hallway. Doctors shouting indistinctly and the security guard and Landon holding me back from running after that bed. My conscience getting the best of me mostly because I let my pride get the in the way.
Sitting in this waiting room with other families waiting to hear news about someone they love. The sounds of doctors footsteps approaching the door gets you all round up until they walk the opposite direction. The agony of waiting to hear about some, not knowing if they are going to be okay or not. It was all so intense and I just felt horrible.
An hour passed and finally Joey’s mother came walking through the door. A tissue in her hand, her nose red and stuffy, her eyes weary and baggy, and her body language expressing she is tired. Of everything.
She sits next to me and just blows her nose. I stare off into the distance hoping she doesn’t blame me.
“How long you’ve been here?” She asked as she threw away her snotty tissue.
I blinked out of my trance and looked at her.”Maybe two hours.”
Looking at her, I couldn’t help but weep. Looking at her was like looking at Joey.
“I’m so sorry.” I say covering my face with my hands.”I am so sorry.”
“For what dear?”
“For creating all this mess. I’m sorry that Joey’s hurt and I’m sorry that I’m messing it up for you and your son to become closer.”
“Oh honey…” She placed her hand on my back.”It wasn’t your fault. Honestly, I’m not mad. A bit disappointed but I’m not mad. And I’m only disappointed in the fact that you’ve stayed this long and allowed it to bring you to this point.”
I wiped my nose.”What?”
“Hun, Joey will always be my son nothing can change that. But when he is doing wrong I refuse to support him in his wrong-doing. I always knew that something like this might happen to let Joey know that life is not a game. Once you strike out, you’re out for good. I just don’t understand how a strong beautiful young lady could’ve endured this for so long and not tell anyone.”
“How’d you know?”
“It a little something called a mothers intuition. I know my child, I gave birth to him. I know what he is capable of doing and what he isn’t. Joey doesn’t take orders well, and when you tell him no he believe the whole world is out to get him. I should’ve contacted someone to get him help. But I am so tired and fed-up. I’ve tried everything in power to help him and he keeps blowing it off.”
“Knowing that it has come to this, it hurts badly. Someday when you have a child you’ll understand how much it hurts to have to go through this. I’ve cried and cried so many nights, praying he’ll get better. I still do, but sometimes you have to learn for yourselves. But the worst feeling as a mother is too seeing your child suffering and there’s nothing you can do to help them as a parent.”
She took her tissue and blew her nose.”Excuse me.” She then got up and left out the waiting area.
I must have dosed off after that because when I woke up Landon was beside me with two coffees in his hand.
“You look like shit.” He said.
I rolled my eyes and turned my body away from him.
“You still mad at me?”
I stayed silent.
“Come on, you can’t stay mad at me forever.”
“Yes I can and I will.”
“Because…” I sat up still not looking at him.”You lied to me. You made me think that you’re mother were abused by your father. Do you know how big that is? I actually trusted you.”
“I know I know but you don’t understand. I had to say something for you to realize what was going on. You were so clueless and I was just trying to help. Now you’re just giving up on us?”
“I’m glad you understand.”
The doctor startled us as he barged into the door. He removed his mask off his face and looked at his clipboard.
“Anyone here for a… Andrew Carrillo?”
I sprung out my seat.”Yeah.”
“Are you his mother?”
Do I look old enough to be his mother you idiot?
“That’d be me.” Joey’s mom said as she entered the waiting room.
“I’m his…” I glanced over at Landon who was staring at me.”…friend.”
“Well I have good news and bad news. Which would you like me to start with?”
“Just tell us Doc.” Joey’s mother cried.
“Alright then, the bad news is he has suffered a lot of injuries. He has a broken leg, arm and wrist. He had a mild concussion and a few bruised ribs. He found something in his brain but we aren’t sure exactly what it is. Were still running text to determine that factor, hopefully it won’t cause any problems. Also, because he had many shards of glass in his legs and with the broken and fractured bones he may not be able to walk. The good news is that we haven’t found anything to bad and he should be fine. He’s in the ICU right now getting some rest. You can go see him in about fifteen minutes.”
“Thanks Doc.” Joey’s mother said.
He gave a slight grin.”You’re welcome.”
“You can go see him now.”
Joey’s mother came out of his room, her eyes bloodshot red. She looked hopeless.
I nodded and slowly pushed the door open.
He was in the bed, his eyes close and all this machines hooked up into him. I pulled a seat right next to the side of his bed and wrapped my hands over his.
“Hey…” I said.”You probably can’t hear me right now because you’re asleep but I’ll still talk. It’s hard to see you… like this. I never knew this would happen and I’m sorry. I-I could’ve handled the situation better I admit but what did you expect. All I ever asked for was for you to love me like you did in the beginning but no you had to hit me. Why Joey? Why did you mess up something that was so perfect?”
“I should’ve known from the start that something was wrong the first time you hit me. I just—I just don’t understand all of this. This had been one of the hardest months of my life. I just knew that I and you would be together forever. I just have a question. If you love me, then why did you hurt me? Over and over again, and you never stopped. You make it hard for me to trust anyone anymore.”
“I actually have someone out there who cares for me but I’m scared. I’m scared he might turn into—well you. I don’t ever want to relieve this nightmare I’ve been having. I don’t want any women to experience what I experienced. Sometimes I just wish I was dead because it would be easier. I’m afraid to let you go even though I don’t love you like I used too. I still have you in my heart, I always will.”
“Hopefully you can hear me because I would hate to have to repeat this to you.”
I laid my head on the bed and started to cry.
“I just feel horrible.”
I then felt him squeeze my hand. I lifted my head up and saw his eyelids opening.
“What? What are you trying to say?” I asked.
“I’m- I’m—I’m sorry.”
His voice was cracking and his lips were do dry I was afraid they might just crack and bleed.
“I- I never meant to hurt you. I-I just thought that-that you would replace me and you would forget about me. I wanted to control you but—but I see I can’t do that. When I got hit the last thing I remember was- was seeing your face screaming you-you hate me. That’s something- that’s something I’m going to have to leave with.”
“Joey…” I mumbled.”I don’t you, I could never hate you.”
He tried to smile.”This is why I love you so much Kim. You-you are my everything and I just couldn’t lose the best thing that happened in my life. You complete me and without you I am nothing. If I don’t make it, promise me Kim that you’ll never forget me… because I’ll-I’ll never ever let you go.”
I nodded while tears rolled down my face stinging my cheeks.
“I promise.” I said.”I promise.”
I was at home sleeping in my bed. This was the most rest I had gotten in a long time before the whole accident. It was peaceful and then I heard my phone ring.
I yarned and stretched for it pushed talk and answered.
“Kim? Is this Kim?”
I sat up form my bed. “Mrs. Carrillo? Yes it’s me. What’s wrong?”
“He developed a blood clot in his brain. He’s gone Kim. My baby is gone.
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