It was momma telling me that we need to talk. I nodded and followed her into her room. Daddy was over at his mom’s house with Maddie, Bailey, and Riley. Colleen was up in her room and the Savannah and Lyndsey were in the living room watching The Notebook. “What is it momma?” I asked her and she patted the bed. I sat down and looked at her. “A mother can tell when her daughter loses her virginity Lexie.” She said and I gulped, no way of lying my way out of this one. “I love him momma.” I said “But he can break your heart, he’s leaving in two weeks Lexie! You were supposed to keep your virginity until you were married!” She said “momma you didn’t.” I said “I know and I pay the price of being a young mother. I don’t regret it but I could have waited.” She said “I didn’t mean to momma.” I said and she nodded. “Lexie, you think you’re in love. You got caught up and you felt the moment was right. I’m not mad. Just disappointed that you didn’t wait. You weren’t supposed to be the boy crazy one. I won’t tell your dad.” She said I nodded “He did use a condom right?” She asked me “Yes ma’am he did.” I said and she smiled at me.
I walked up into my room and then I climbed up on the roof. Bringing my knees to my chest and day-dreamed. Colleen, Savannah, and Lyndsey crawled up onto the roof. “What happened?” Colleen asked me “I lost my virginity to Ethan.” I said and they made me tell them what it was like and everything so I did. They smiled at me and everything.
I went to bed exhausted and fell into a deep sleep and had an amazing dream. I woke up and went jogging but this time through the park. I felt like jogging most of my morning because it was a beautiful day. I walked past a bench of a couple making out. The male guy looked like Ethan but I knew it couldn’t have been Ethan. It looked like Lauren, Nicole’s daughter. They pulled apart from each other and then they started to get up. The guy turned away and looked at me, sure enough it was Ethan and the girl was Lauren. “Lauren and Ethan?” I asked “Hi Lexie.” She said “Lexie.” He started to say “Don’t.” I said “What are you two doing?” I asked “I’m his girlfriend.” She said “No your not I am.” I said Ethan looked away “Ethan!” Lauren said “I’m sorry Lexie; I didn’t know you would find out.” He said I walked closer to him and slapped him. And took off running, I ran past the house I didn’t feel like going home. I ran to the creek and kept on running until I couldn’t run no more. I fell down to the ground and couldn’t do anything. I got up and walked home and froze.
I ran up the steps to the house and then opened the door. Momma and daddy were in the kitchen drinking their coffee. I walked past them without saying anything and ran up the stairs. “Lexie slow down!” Daddy said I kept on running up the stairs and ran into my room and slammed the door. Momma got up and walked up the stairs and knocked on my door “Lexie?” She asked “Go away!” I said she didn’t even bother. Lyndsey broke in through the window.
“What happened Lexie?” She asked I was curled up in my bed under the blankets. Sobbing, I couldn’t stop crying my eyes out. “I jogged to the park…” I sobbed “Saw Lauren and Ethan making out.” I said Lyndsey rubbed my back and tried soothing me. “I’m so sorry Lex.” She said “I trusted him, I loved him, I gave him my virginity.” I said “Lex, you knew it was going to end.” He said “But he said we could last if we wanted to. I thought he did!” I sobbed she didn’t know what to say so she was rubbing my back. I faked falling asleep so she could leave and she did leave.
I heard them at my door “Lexie caught Ethan cheating on him with Lauren.” Lyndsey was telling Savannah, Colleen, and momma. “I blame myself.” Colleen said “If we wouldn’t had pushed her to get a boyfriend she never would have dealt with it.” Savannah said I just ignored them. And actually cried myself to sleep. I was awoken to my door opening, Lauren came in. “Lex I didn’t know he was your boyfriend.” She said but she wasn’t feeling sorry. “Okay. Get out.” I said she nodded and left.
I stayed in my room all day and night and didn’t feel like getting out of my bed. Ethan kept calling but I didn’t answer any of his calls. He was leaving early he said in one of his messages. He felt sorry for what he did and that he loved me. I kept crying my eyes out when I knew everybody was asleep I walked to the roof and wrapped my knees to my chest and sobbed. “Lexie?” Colleen asked I didn’t say anything. “I know what you’re going through.” She said hugging me. “You didn’t lose your virginity to him.” I sobbed and she hugged me and let me cry on her shoulder. Savannah and Lyndsey came out and hugged me and tried helping to cheer me up. “He’s leaving tomorrow.” I said and they nodded. “I changed your Facebook Status.” Savannah said and I nodded. “Thanks.” I said she nodded and I went back inside to go to bed. I spent three days in bed I couldn’t feel like moving I didn’t even want to. I walked out on the fourth day with bad bed head and killer breath. I didn’t feel like jogging. I’m done with jogging or running now. I hate this so much!
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