It's April 5th and we're at the OBGYN appointment again "Your baby is growing so good! She or he is healthy looking!" Doctor Walls said and we smiled at them. Taxes were due on the 15th and we had them filed and sent out already. And the 16th was our four month appointment, I now weigh 111, we are both healthy and we can find out the sex either at our next OBGYN appointment or the following one. Everything is going good, I'm not getting attached to people at work. It's weird at work not having Alice there to talk to. Bella is forming a relationship with Austin, it was cute when they would have brother-sister dates every week, he would have a daddy-daughter date with Kelsey every week too. I kissed Kelsey's good night and I tucked her in bed and then we tucked Bella in and then we went to bed, I was tired easily. I felt a kick and I looked at Austin and placed his hand on my stomach "That's either Brayden or Alice kicking." I said and Austin smiled at me and kissed my lips softly.
For my next OBGYN appointment I was nineteen weeks pregnant and the baby was being shy so we couldn't find out the sex of the baby. "Your baby is a healthy one!" Doctor Smith said and I nodded, next week is our final weeks and then we're out of school until August. Allie came over as soon as we got home "So?" Allie asked "We find out next month if the baby lets us." I said and Allie smiled "Jake asked me to marry him!" She said "You did say yes right?" I asked "I did." Allie said smiling at me "good!" I said and she smiled "I can't believe Bella is almost seven." Allie said "I know!" I said and she smiled at me. That night we sat Bella down "What do you want to do for your birthday?" I asked "Disney World!" Bella said and Austin looked at me "My appointment is next week and we can see." I said and he nodded "If I can't go then what?" I asked "A party at the beach is fine!" Bella said and I smiled at her and kissed her forehead.
At my appointment which was after my last final "I was wondering if it would be safe to go to Disney World?" I asked "It would be, make sure you drink plenty of water. And you don't stay on your feet too long." Doctor Wood said and I nodded. I worked 4-12 every day and spent the remaining of the day with Kelsey until Bella came home, she doesn't get out of school until June 6th and then her birthday is the 7th and we're taking Stacy with us for the few days we will be there. We're going to Bella's school award show on the 6th, we have our OBGYN appointment on the 5th and hopefully we can find out the sex. It's the second now and we're at the house and Allie and Jake are over here eating over."I hope you find out the sex tomorrow!" Allie said and I smiled, I am now 23 weeks and I have my next appointment on the 11th and we will be home on time. We stayed up until eleven talking and then they went home and I curled up with Austin, "We find out the sex hopefully!" I said and he kissed my lips softly.
The next morning I checked the mail from the day before and saw a letter from my mom to me, I sat at the table and opened it:
I know you are probably finding out the sex of your baby any day now. I just wish I was being a good grandmom and being by your side right now. Kelsey is a beautiful little girl Lexie, and you can tell she loves her mommy. You are doing a great job with Bella as well and I appreciate all that you're doing for Bella. I'm doing good in rehab Lexie, you would be proud of me.I know I should be saying how much I love this rehab program, but it isn't a piece of cake. But I needed tough love like I thought you needed growing up. But don't worry I realize I was wrong and thearpy has really helped. I can't believe our little Bella is going to be seven, but I don't deserve to call her mine. All I did was give birth to her, you raised Bella into the beautiful little girl she is today. When I get out of the program I won't come back and try to take her from you. This is her home Lex, with you and Austin. I am so sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for not being a good mother. I want to make everything right with you and I will start when I get out. I'm going to sta in California Lexie and I'm going to do good. I'm going to change who I am. I love you baby girl, I truly do. I regret how bad of a mother I was and I know I can change that.
I put the letter away and hugged Kelsey "Mommy loves you baby girl." I said and she kissed my cheek "wuv yew too." she said and I smiled "You can talk clearly on some things and then not so clearly on others." I said and she giggled at me. I put her down and I got her dressed and then we walked around the house and then went outside so she could play with her toy, Austin was working and I was off today. "Mommy?" Kelsey asked "Yeah?" I asked "Baby?" She asked "We find out if you are having a little sister or brother today hopefully." I said and she giggled, "Do you want to go get Bella's birthday gift?" I asked "Yes!" Kelsey said and I giggled. I got her in the car seat and then I got in and we went to the mall and I put her in her stroller because I was getting too big to hold her, we went to the kid's store and found some Hello Kitty stuff, a Tinkerbell blanket, and then a build a bear gift card. We went to the book store and Kelsey told her daddy all about what we got her and how we went to MD for lunch and she enjoyed it. "Are you ready to find out?" I asked "I am." Austin said "Okay come on." I said and he kissed my lips softly and we followed behind him in my car.
We're at the doctor's office and Kelsey is playing with my necklace on my lap but she moves to Austin and he's playing with her and then we hear "Alexis Blevins?" I get up and he gets up and has Kelsey on his hip and bounced her. I laid down on the table and Doctor Walls put the blue gel on my stomach and it was cool and I looked at Austin who had Kelsey on his lap she was waiting patiently. Within a few seconds the baby was on the screen and we heard the heart beat "Steady heart beat. Good growth. And your baby isn't playing shy today." Doctor Walls said and I looked at Austin and squeezed his hand. I can't believe I'm going to find out what we're having which will mean shopping for baby stuff! She zoomed in and I smiled at the image "Congratulations you are having a baby....!!!"