I'm sitting on my floor in my
bedroom packing up my room. I saw a picture of me and my sister
and my daddy. My mind went back to that day. I was three years
old then. The day my parents announced the big D-word everyone
hears now in this century a lot. My big sister Eva is ten years
older than me. Then it's my brother Bryan who is five years older
than me. I was used as the last attempt to save a family as you
can tell already it didn't work. I'm Colie.
Eva had me on her hips we
were walking outside and had just came in. Our Saint Bernard
Buddy sat on the floor next to us. "We have an announcement to
make to you all." Momma and daddy said looking at us three kids.
"Your father and I love for each other isn't there no more. And
we decided that it would be best if we get a divorce." Momma said
to us I looked up at my big sister with my icy blue eyes
sparkling. "It means momma and daddy won't be married and we
won't be a family anymore." Eva said. "Your mother gets custody
of all of you." Daddy said. With that Eva placed me on her hip
and took off running up the stairs and into her room locking the
She placed me on her
stomach and held me close to her "Colie I promise no matter what
I will always be here for you. I won't turn my back on my baby
sister." She said to me her own icy blue eyes sparkling with
wetness from the tears. My strawberry blonde hair fell in my
knocked on the door. "We're moving
too." He said Eva broke down and cried while holding me to her
chest. "Sissy I love you. I promise I will be here for you too."
I told her that day. And to this day I kept that promise. And I
still expect myself to keep it too.
Here it is 12 years later
and we're moving again to Florida from New
York City. I live with my
mom her husband Jack; married him 30 days after the divorce was
finally. They had three kids: Brittany is 10, Tommy is 7, and Allie is 3. My daddy
before he left promised us we would be with him every weekend. He
has promised a lot over the 12 years and a lot has been broken.
I'm 15 as of today and nobody remembers that today is my
is at college in
North Carolina. Eva is with her husband in
They're expecting a baby girl in five months. I was on the phone
with daddy and he said he's picking me up to go out to dinner and
celebrate my birthday. It has always been a competition between
my mom and dad about who can buy my love more or the best. They
don't win at all.
I found my brown leggings
and my denim Mini skirt from Hollister, paired it with my pink
cami from A&F and my purple Hollister baby tee. My black
classy boots were on and my knee length strawberry blonde hair
was brushed and left down. I had the necklace that my grandma
gave me when I was two and my "Dream" bracelet on. I found my
black Abercrombie & Fitch hoodie. I'm a size X-small and it's
a size medium. I like my hoodies big on me. I walked down stairs
and smiled at Allie who was playing with her doll on the couch.
Momma and Jack looked up "Where are you going to?" Momma asked
me. "Out to dinner with daddy." I said she looked stunned.
"What's the special occasion?" she asked. "Nothing." I
My cell phone vibrated
letting me know I got a text from Eva I clicked read now:
Happy Birthday Colie. Can't wait to celebrate it with you when
ya'll get here. I love you. So does Brent. Have fun today! I
quickly texted back a Thanks only to get a text from
Bryan: Happy Birthday Colie. Hope it's a good
day. Love you sissy. I texted back a thanks and I heard the
door bell ring. And Tommy yelled "I will get it." He got it and
yelled; "Colie it's for you." I blinked my contacts wet and
walked downstairs. "Hey daddy." I said smiling and hugged him.
"Hey baby girl." He said smiling. Momma came in; "Jeff have her
home by 11." Momma said "Okay Karen." He said while wrapping his
arm around my shoulder "Bye girls and Tommy." I yelled and for
once I didn't wait for their response back. Daddy smiled at me.
"Did they tell you happy birthday?" he asked me. "No sir only
you, Bryan, Eva, and my friends. Not them." I said walking into
the elevator that leads me to wherever daddy is taking me
Dinner was wonderful a
night out on the town. I loved it daddy did well tonight. He
dropped me off at 11 I gave him a quick peck on the cheek, "Colie
you leave Sunday so Friday night you're spending the night with
me okay?" he asked I smiled "Okay daddy." I said all happily. My
birthday is May 20th so I don't have school anymore
until fall when I begin high school. I walked in the house and of
course the girls and Tommy was in bed and momma and Jack were on
the couch. "Did you have fun tonight?" Momma asked me. "Yes ma'am
I'm spending the night with him Friday night." I said she sighed
"Okay Colie." She said I smiled and walked into my room and there
was a package from Eva I opened it a new Ipod touch 64GB with
Promises aren't made to be broken remember that Colie.
Promises are golden. I smiled and downloaded all my songs on
it. Momma knocked "Come in momma." I said she opened the door and
came right in and smiled.
"Isn't your birthday
coming up?" she asked me. I rolled my eyes; "It's today momma." I
said "Oh Colie. My gift for you is you're flying down there
tomorrow morning and spending the couple days with Eva." She said
I almost cried. "NO I'm not leaving yet. I have to spend the
night with daddy." I said "Cut the crap Colie. We both know he
won't show." She said "He will momma. He promised me. He has to."
I said "Fine stay. I don't give a flip. I don't want to listen to
it when you get hurt." She said and then walked out. I looked out
my window and rolled my eyes. I know daddy will be here for me
this time. He won't let his baby girl down not right not anyways.
I told myself that three times then I fell asleep and dreamt of
lovely things. Old times in my life when life was easier but it's
only get tougher I reckon that is.
"Colie time to get up."
Momma said, I rolled my eyes and rolled over. "It's our daily
jog." She said I grunted and placed my contacts in my eyes and
found my jogging pants and jacket combo to wear. I found my pumas
and met momma out front of the house. We jogged 5 miles and then
stopped. Yes I love to run and so does my mom so we go out every
morning and night. "I'm sorry I forgot your birthday Colie. There
is just a lot going on right now sweetie." Momma said her normal
auto-response and mine is "Uh-huh." We drank some water and then
took off toward home again. I jumped in the shower and got
dressed. And finished packing and then got ready to pack.
Tomorrow I spend my next to the last night in New York City with my daddy!
I got up and got packed
for the night and smiled at myself in the mirror. I haven't spent
the night with him in two months and I know tonight will be
rocking. He's supposed to be here at 2 o'clock to pick me up. And it's 12 now. I smiled at
myself and played the Wii while I waited; did the running three
times so that gave me half an hour to do the obstacle course
one. 2 o'clock
came nothing, 3 nothing, 4 nothing,
5 nothing, 6 nothing, 7 nothing, 8 nothing, 9 nothing, 10
nothing, 11 nothing. It was midnight and I'm locked in my room. Yes I locked the
door; the phone started ringing and it was daddy, hoping he will
say he's on his way. "Colie sorry I couldn't make it. Business
meeting sorry. But breakfast later on at 10 o'clock at the café?" he asked "Sure daddy." I said
staying strong. "I promise you." "Okay daddy." I said hanging up.
Eva called; "hello?" "He didn't show." She said matter of fact
like. "Nope." "Sorry kiddo." She said "Yeah me too." I said. I
was hurt this time bad. For once I thought he would actually show
up since I'm moving but nothing! Why? Aren't I his baby
I got up at
9:30 and wore my sweats and hair in a sloppy
pony-tail. 10 o'clock
came around and nothing happened.
But at 12 there was a honk outside and it was daddy. Two hours
late this is just like him. "Hi Colie." Daddy said smiling. I
smiled too it was half-hearted but it counted. I sat in the front
seat and turned up the country station. "Are you happy about
moving?" Daddy asked me "I don't really know. I guess I am and
then again I'm not. But I guess it's something new." I said;
daddy smiled. He has strawberry blonde hair and baby blue eyes.
Momma has dirty blonde hair and icy blue eyes. I get my hair from
daddy's side and eyes from momma.
We talked some more about
random stuff and I was smiling when we made it to my favorite
café and then there was a lady there who was waiting for someone
and saw daddy and smiled. "Hi Jeff." She said with a tone of
bitter sweetness. In her voice. "Colie this is my girlfriend
Alice." Daddy said. "Hi." I said "Hi." She said back, it was an
awkward as all get out. I smiled nicely and get all happy when
daddy said its time to go. "Nice meeting you Alice." I said
smiling at her yes it's a force smile. "You too. Can't wait to
see you again." She said "Likewise." I said and walked to the car
stopping and turning around only to see them sucking face.
"Daddy is this why you
stood me up yesterday?" I thought to myself but I didn't want to
say it out loud not yet anyways. "What did you think?" Daddy
asked me, "She's alright." I said looking out the window. "Just
alright?" daddy asked. "Well I don't really know her daddy. So I
can't judge her. And I don't want to judge her." I said he
nodded. "Colie what is bothering you right now?" he asked me, I
wanted to scream at him. I looked at the window and thought about
all that has happened over the past 12 years I can't tell you how
many promises I was made and how many actually went through with
it. "Daddy is this why you stood me up yesterday?" I finally
asked him that question. He looked at me. "Colie no it isn't. I
was working." He said denying it. "Tell me the truth daddy. You
owe me that much." I said "I don't owe you anything. You're my
daughter." He said "Yes your daughter. You made a promise and you
broke it. I got yelled at because I said you would come. You
turned me into a fool. I'm glad I'm leaving tomorrow. I'm tired
of your lies and broken promises! I'm your daughter. Your baby
girl! I don't remember the last time you kept a promise with me.
You were late today because of that woman! I can't stand you
daddy. Just take me home." I said with out looking at home. The
last words he said to me: "I will miss you Colie. Love