I woke up at six again and went walking with Sassy and this time
Karen went with me and we talked about old memories I have and
her old memories. She said "your daddy never talks about Robbie,
the only thing he does talk about is how much fun you three would
have at baseball games." She said and I smiled "yeah we had a ton
of fun. Just us three, and then when daddy left Robbie and I
still went no matter what." I said then remembering the accident
I shiver and she wraps her arms around me and hugs me tight "no
matter what they say it's not your fault, it was an accident.
Accidents happens and people must overcome them." She said
looking into the distance. "You had problems with accidents?" I
asked her she nodded "I was 15 years old and my best friend was
16 years old she had her license so we were out late one night
goofing around and everything. We were going ten miles over the
speed limit going over a curve how stupid of us I know. A deer
darts out and she knew she couldn't stop instead so she moved to
the left and didn't see the on coming car that was doing about 20
over the speed limit and we hit head on the car does about ten
flips and lands sideways don't ask me how but it did and my best
friend's side was at the top I was on the bottom. She said Karen,
I love you girl. Hold on. She was dangling she was bloody red too
and next thing you know she just laid there lifeless. I blamed
myself for so long saying if I would have told her to slow down
she would still be alive today. We had just found out she was
pregnant too. So we were coming home from celebrating. Colie it
took me until I had Blake and Savannah to know that it wasn't my
fault." She said you could tell that killed her talking about it
but she didn't care. "I would like to see some pictures of him
when he was a baby to the last picture that was taken."
She said my mind went back to the last picture taken of him ever
I took it of him and Lexie at the beach we were all taking
pictures so you had me and him I was on his back and the camera
clicked when he and I both stuck out tongue out sideways that was
and is our signature picture mark. Lexie was on his back and the
picture took. The very last picture of them to was when they were
sitting on the towel with the sunset behind them on the beach and
I took the picture. He had asked her to marry him when they got
out of high school too. They dated from 5th grade until he died
too. We got home and I showed her all the pictures and she smiled
at the one of me and him. "You really love him and you can tell.
That's a great kind of love. He's your idol and you can tell
that. You miss him so much. He loves you."
We turned down the road to the house and I looked at her "do you
ever want to have another child?" I asked her and she smiled and
looked away "yes I do." She said and we walked up the stairs and
I went to take a shower looking at my baby bump realizing how
much my life has changed in the last year. I grabbed the GPS and
put the park's address in it and drove to the park to meet Lexie.
It was an hour and a half drive but it was half way so it doesn't
I saw Lexie sitting down feeding the duck and I walked toward her
"hey Colie." She said smiling I smiled and hugged her. "Aw your
baby bump is so cute!" she said smiling again and we sit down.
"How is college life?" I asked her "hard but good." She said and
then looked at me "I met a guy at the local coffee shop his name
is Bryan and he's the first guy I have ever talked to since
Robbie's death." She said and I smiled that's good to know. "He
would want you to move on." I said she nodded and smiled at me "I
know it." She said then she looked at me "whatever I tell you is
kept private right? It stays between you and me?" she asked me. I
looked at her with a worried look on my face "yes of course.
What's up?" I asked her "You know how I went a way for a year?
And my parents stayed here but I went to live with my Uncle and
Aunt?" she asked me. "Yes, what about it?" I asked her "three
weeks before Robbie died we had sex, three weeks later I found
out I was six weeks pregnant." Lexie said I looked at her "I kept
the baby don't worry, but for now the baby is kept under cover."
She said I looked at her I had nothing I could say to her. The
baby is almost two years old. "What did you have?" I asked her "a
little girl, she has ya'll icy blue eyes and my brown curly hair,
her daddy's nose and ears, my mouth, my tan complexion." She said
I smiled at her "what's her name?" I asked her "Holly Hope
Blevins." She said smiling at me "who is she with?" I asked "my
mom and dad. But Spring Break I'm going up to visit and she's
coming here with me." She said I smiled "Robbie didn't know." I
said sadly "yeah that's why I had to escape town or people who
really stare and wonder and the rumors would have been worst."
She said I nodded and hugged her. She pulled out a picture of her
and the little girl and she did look a lot like Lexie and Robbie.
"I plan on telling your dad when she is here so she could meet
her grandpa Jeff, grandma Karen, Aunt Colie, and Aunt Erica" she
said smiling at me "I wish you would have told me this earlier."
I said "I know I wasn't planning on telling you for awhile but
that all changed when I heard that you were pregnant and I wanted
to tell you I'm here for you." She said I smiled at her.
"I'm going to switch to college online so I will be home with
her, I have a little house for rent three blocks from where you
said you're living and Bryan and I are really serious and he
can't wait to see her. We're moving in together over the next
weeks before Spring Break so I will bring Holly home where her
momma and Bryan is. Don't worry she will know all about her
daddy." She said and I smiled at her. "Does he come to you in
your dreams too?" she asked me and I nodded "yeah he does." I
said "one of these dreams I will announce to him that he has a
daughter." Lexie said and I nodded. We droved to her new house
and she smiled at me.
It's February 15th Blake and I are in the doctor's office waiting
to find out the sexes of our babies. "You and the babies are
healthy." Doctor Swift said nicely and I smiled "would you two
like to know the sexes?" she asked me and we nodded. "Yes ma'am
we would." I said finally able to say something. "One of each."
She said and Blake looked confused "Boy and a girl Blake." I said
trying to make the picture clearer for him to understand it
I forgot to tell you the night of our walk Karen & daddy
tells us that they're expecting a baby too. So she's two months
and were three months weird but it's alright.
March 18th Lexie is calling me "hello?" I asked "yeah can you
tell Karen and your dad that I'm taking them up on their offer
Friday night if it's okay? Just call me back and let me know."
She said and then hung up I walked downstairs they know the sex
of the baby but hasn't told us yet. "Colie come sit down since
you're four months pregnant with twins we want you to be the
first to know." Daddy said "alright then I gotta talk to you
two." I said they smiled "a baby girl." Karen said I smiled
"Caitlyn Brooke Summerland." Daddy said and I smiled "Okay Colie
what do you gotta tell us?" she asked "Lexie wanted to know if
she can take you up on her offer and come over for dinner
Friday?" I asked them and they nodded "baby girl, I have always
loved Lexie no matter what." He said "and I have always wanted to
meet her." Karen said I smiled and everyone else came in to find
out the sex of the baby. Blake rolls his eyes at us because we're
happy to be having a baby sister daddy smiled at him "at least
your giving us a boy in the house." We rolled our eyes at that.
The house next to Lexie is for rent too $350 a month and
everything is included the landlord was a teen mother at one
point and understands the struggle so she owns land all over
Florida for teen parents to buy a house. And we're getting that
house they don't know.
I'm wearing stretchy shorts and a XXL baggy t-shirt because I was
so skinny unless I want to impress people I can wear XXL shirts
and it will be baggy. But I took a shower and got changed into
maternity black shorts and a hot pink maternity shirt with
diamonds on it. I had brushed my hair and everything and now
we're waiting for Lexie to arrive. They know about Bryan but not
Holly yet and I'm excited to see my niece for the first time. In
two months she will be two years old.
They pulled up and Lexie and Bryan got out first telling Holly to
stay for a minute. They rung the doorbell daddy answered and
hugged Lexie and smiled at Bryan "I forgot something in the car."
Bryan said excusing himself to go get it. "Karen and Jeff I need
to tell you something." She said and they nodded "three weeks
before Robbie's death we had sex. Three weeks after his death I
found out I was six weeks pregnant. That's why I left North
Carolina. I kept the baby and I had a daughter, she looks so much
like Robbie and I." she said he looked at her and smiled "so I'm
a grandpa already?" he asked and she smiled.
Bryan came in with Holly and we all smiled at how beautiful she
was and how much she looked at Robbie and her combined. "Holly is
her name. Holly Hope Summerland I figured you wouldn't mind." She
said smiling at him. "Holly this is your grandpa, grandma, Aunt
Colie, Aunt Erica, Uncle Blake and Aunt Savannah." She said and
Holly smiled. She walked to daddy and got in his lap and we all
knew that she's grandpa's little girl. "Since we're doing news.
Blake and I are moving after the babies are born." I said "where
to?" daddy asked and we told him and he smiled. "Alright, that's
not far away. So we're good." He said and daddy told Holly all
about her daddy and she was smiling. "I wish daddy was with me
but I know he's in heaven." She said and we smiled at her. Holly
sat in Lexie's lap until dinner then had to sit between her
grandpa and Aunt Colie. Yeah she's fond of me too now.
"Aunt Erica!" she said running into Erica's open arms "Holly!"
she said smiling and spinning her arm. "Ya'll are good with her."
Lexie said and I smiled "if you ever need a baby sitter I'm here
for you." I said and daddy agreed. "Colie when they are born I'm
here for you too. And I know a lot about babies now and teen
pregnancy is tough as you're learning now. It's only get tougher
too. Especially when you're trying to get a job they look down on
you. But when you hold your daughter and son everything will be
worth it Colie. Just wait."