I woke up and got dressed in my ripped blue jeans and a purple
baby tee. I brushed my hair and grabbed my cheerleading bag and
my backpack and I shoved my laptop in the bag. Took Sassy out and
placed her in her crate and woke Erica up. We had breakfast and I
took the keys to Robbie's car. It got fixed and passed down to
me. We loaded up the car and left a note: going to school. Be
back later. Erica is riding the bus home but I'm taking her to
school. We have lunch money so no worries.
I dropped her off at PersonMiddle School and she smiled
at me "good luck sissy!" she said I smiled and she took her bags
and I droved down the road to Person High. I parked in the
students section and then got my bags and walked into school. Sky
smiled and hugged me "First day of Sophomore year!" she said and
I smiled at her. I was in the cheerleading squad last year but
dropped out of it and the coach understood and so I'm trying it
again this year.
*flashbacks to first day of school last year*
"Yummy! Momma made breakfast!" Robbie said I was in the bathroom
taking my sweet time getting ready and I knew he wanted to use
the bathroom since he's a junior this year. "Yeah right! I'm not
falling for that!" I yelled out through the close door. "Colie
hurry up!" he said I rolled my eyes and finished my make up. I
walked out and smiled at him "You don't need make up on you're
pretty enough Colie." He said and I rolled my eyes at him "Shut
up." I said and he laughed "it's true." He said "I'm a freshman
this year today is the day that will stick with me for the next
four years I gotta look my best Rob." I said shortening his name
to make me sound older and he rolled his eyes at me. "And momma
really made pancakes better hurry up." He said stepping in the
bathroom to take about ten minutes in there.
We walk through the doors and he tells me "Good luck Colie. I
will see you around." I was amazed at how big the school was I
have never seen a school this big and all the drama filled. But I
saw a ton of cute guys and Robbie's friend Jake called me over to
their group "Colie good luck! This is a jungle now!" he said and
I rolled my eyes "your sister is sassy!" Hank said "she's my
little sister leave her alone." Robbie said "Dude I can defend
myself." I bit back "sorry. Doubt it but I will be here for you
sis. Now go to class." He said and I rolled my eyes at him and
walked to class and the day went amazing and I had my big brother
as support and I know I always will because he loves me so much.
And then the year went by so slowly after….
*gets out of flashbacks*
"Colie school is so great! But now its lunch time so
come on! I'm starved!" Sky said and I smiled at her "sorry I
zoned out." I said and she smiled "I saw that we all did though."
She said I nodded and we went through the line. "Look who do we
have here?" Mackenzie Ross asked me she's the popular clique girl
she had a crush on Robbie. "If it isn't little miss Colie and her
best friend Sky. How are you since his death?" she asked me
knowing that gets to me "I'm fabulous glad to see you're still
alive." I said moving on in line "Are you gonna stay on the squad
this year?" she asked me "Oh shut up." I said paying and we
walked outside and sat under the tree.
"Mackenzie needs a life." Sky said trying to defend me
now that it's to late. "Nah she's pretty much good at ruining
others." I said and she had no comment for that. "Six more days."
She said bring up how many more days until the one year mark. "Oh
Shut Up." I said to her getting up and throwing my food away and
walking to the library. "Colie, hope sophomore year won't consist
of this again." The Librarian said and I rolled my eyes. I walked
back out because of that comment and remember "You can always go
running." Coach Kelly said "but just ask me first." I walked to
the Gym "Coach Kelly can I go run the track for my lunch period?"
I asked and I had gym next period anyways so I won't be cutting
it close. "Sure thing Colie it's the perfect thing to clear your
mind and you're in my next class right?" she asked "yes ma'am." I
said walking into the locker room to change.
I found my black short shorts with the words: PHS on
the back in Hot pink and my Hot Pink tank top with the words PHS
in black letters. I put my pumas on and pulled my hair into a
sloppy pony-tail and took off running down the track field going
as fast as I could. Running is my way of escaping things always
has been since I was 5 and eleven years later it still is. I
normally run until I forget whatever is bothering me or is on my
mind. So I stopped when the bell ran and walked into the gym. Sky
was in there already and she ran up to me she was changed into
her gym clothes. "I'm so sorry. I regret saying that. I didn't
mean it that way. Please forgive me?" she asked me "alright." I
said smiling at her "over the summer you got faster." She said
and I smiled at her. Wow just like that I have forgiven her and
yet here it is a year later and I haven't forgiven myself for
Robbie being dead. She smiles at me and we sits down and she
gives me a look because I haven't ate and she knows good in well
I only made Erica's breakfast and lied and told Erica that I
already ate knowing I didn't.
We did the running and then volleyball and the bell
rang and we stayed in the gym to do cheerleading. And the
cheerleading practice went great we're all off to a great start
this year. "Bye Colie." Sky said getting in her mom's car.
Mackenzie saw what I was getting in and rolled her eyes "how can
you stand to drive that car?" she asked "easy it's a car, go to
Driver's Ed and you will able to know how to drive it." I
commented back getting in the car and driving to Uncle Brent's to
pick up Erica.
I pulled up into the long drive, Uncle Brent and Aunt
Carrie lives on the other side of Roxboro than we do and it's in
the middle between us and Erica's school my school is closer to
the house. I smile when I shut the door and my two year old
cousin Allie came running up to me and hugged my knees "I've
missed you Colie!" she said I picked her up and placed her on my
hip Aunt Carrie sees me and smiles. She sits me down and I tell
her all about my day and she laughs when needed and smiled all
the other times.
"Erica are you ready to go?" I asked her and she nodded
"Yeah I wanna get home and call daddy!" she said smiling "you
girls really do miss him don't you?" Uncle Brent asked coming up
the steps from work. "Yes sir we do." I said he smiles we kissed
his cheek and get in the car. Allie waves good-bye to me and hugs
her daddy smiling at him.
We made it home, I let Sassy out and cooks dinner.
Erica picked up the house phones and calls daddy. "Hey daddy,
it's Erica I guess you're still at work or out. But call me when
you get this! Thanks, I love you daddy!" she said hanging up and
I smile at her. We sit down to eat dinner and my stomach growls
at that and when we're both doing the dishes the phone rings "I
will get it!" she said hoping it was daddy and by the smile on
her face you knew it was him. "Sure thing daddy! Do you wanna
talk to Colie? I'm sure she would like to talk to you!" she said
handing me the phone "Colie or Erica?" he asked I smiled "Yeah
daddy?" I said "how was your day?" he asked "Great, school is
just great." I said "hard day?" he asked "I guess you could say
that." I said "what did you eat for lunch?" he asked noting the
first week I ate dinner only but during those seven weeks I put
on ten pounds that I gotta lose and I've already lost two. "The
school's pizza." I said "that's good. Anything you wanna
discuss?" he asked me and for some odd reason I told him about my
dream and he told me "Colie your mom wouldn't do that. And
besides she can't adopt a child. She has already tried once
before." He said.
Daddy and I hung up around eight and then Blake called me and we
talked until eleven and I was already curled up in bed. I told
him about my dream too and he laughed at the end and so did I
because how stupid did that sound? "Bye Colie, good luck
tomorrow. I love you." He said those words sounded so foreign now
and I know it's because we're not together.
It's now officially has been one year since Robbie's death and
everyone but the freshmen were sad and everyone smiled at me
knowing it must be killing me. Blake and I talked on the phone
that morning and we're gonna talk tonight because he knows I
can't handle it. So here it is now 11:59 and I'm falling asleep I
hear him say "I love you Colie." And then he hung up and I was
out cold in no time.
September was a busy month for us! Between Cheerleading and Erica
doing Volleyball for her school we were on the go. Momma came
home five nights out of 30 days. We didn't complain we're old
enough to take care of ourselves. And we're hoping social
services will get word of this and then we will be moving in with
October was still busy since it's the ending of Volleyball for
Erica and everything else went on for her to tryout for
basketball and stuff while I still did cheerleading.
November 18th-November 23rd were exams for both of us so we
studied really hard and passed. Erica went to spend the holiday
weekend with Uncle Brent and Aunt Carrie since momma came home on
the 20th letting us know she will be in Vegas for it and we could
do whatever. So I picked staying home and doing nothing.
November 23rd after I dropped Erica off I pulled into the house
with Sassy in the passenger seat and I see a rental car there. Un
sure thinking maybe its one of momma's men I got out slowly with
Sassy and then all my worries went away when my boyfriend stepped
out of the car. "I just couldn't wait another month to see you!"
he said I smiled and kissed his lips softly and we walked into my
house I showed him around and well we did what every normal home
alone teenage couples would do. So we're lying in bed cuddled up
now him kissing my hair.
Up until the 27th when he had to go home Sunday morning. I showed
him around town. Nobody knows he came and nobody will. I mean
people in Florida do. But that all changed when Erica came home
and smiled at Blake she knows we wouldn't have done anything in
fact I told her he slept in Robbie's room instead of my bed with
me. "Liar Liar." A voice in my head said and I rolled my eyes.