The sun is showing itself through the trees when I hear my name being called, ignoring it I move through the forest hand in hand with Gabe. My wrists are itchy and sore, but I don't mind, I get to spend the last part of my life with Gabe. I wouldn't change a thing about this life, except that I wish I had really got to know Gabe earlier...
In the time I've been in the forest tonight, I've made the decision of when and how I'm going to die. I love Gabe, but I can't let him get any closer to the real me, he would never love that part of me. That part of me is like a beast ready to kill anything that it comes into contact with, especially the ones with the most contact. Tonight has been amazing, but I just can't keep going on pretending I'm happy, whether I really am or not. I just don't deserve happiness or love, and this is what Gabe is trying to give me...
"Lucy, are you okay? You're zoning out on me, you've been doing it all night." The worry and concern in Gabe's face is enough to make tears spill from my eyes, but I keep it together. What could he do to help even if I told him the whole story? Nothing.
“Oh, sorry. I’m okay, no need to worry.” Here come the lies again, will I stop telling them before I actually do commit suicide? Probably not.
Gabe and I move quietly through the forest, my dad’s voice calling my name a few paces behind us, and getting louder every few seconds. I told Gabe about how dad wanted me to go to the psychiatrist, he agreed to help me get away from dad so I wouldn’t have to go, even though he tried his best to convince me in the beginning to pay him a visit.
When I’m sure my dad’s voice is right behind me, Gabe and I come to a run-down cabin in the middle of the woods. I had never been out this far, but apparently Gabe had. When we moved through the forest, Gabe acted as if he knew where he was going, and he must have. We opened the rickety door to it and walked right in. The floor was made of boards that creaked as we walked. The cabin itself was fairly small, 3 rooms at most. One room consisted of a dusty bed, dresser, and a small table. The next room seemed to be a kitchen, it had a furnace in the middle of the floor with a pipe that ran through the ceiling, and what appeared to be chairs lined up beside an extremely dusty table. The final room was more of a closet than an actual room, it was a small space with a wooden pole running across the length of it.
“This place is amazing, how did you find it?” I find myself whispering to Gabe.
“I came across it a couple nights ago when I was out hunting for something to eat.” Gabe replies, moving to the kitchen area. I follow him to the kitchen and notice a small rope ladder piled on the floor in one corner of the room. Gabe walks straight to it and bends down. The next thing I know, he has pulled up a hidden door in the floor and has tossed the rope ladder down it, attaching one end to a metal hook in the floor.
Gabe and I climb down the ladder, he makes me go first so he can close the door over us, preventing dad from finding us if he manages to enter the cabin. When I get to the bottom of the ladder I can’t see anything. The darkness is ominous and demands you get lost in it. Rather than going on, I wait for Gabe to descend the ladder and stand on the dirt floor beside me. I wonder why Gabe brought me here... and what’s in the darkness beyond. I’ve never been in a hole as dark as this one.
"Stay right behind me, I don't want you to get lost." Gabe whispers. I take his hand and follow him deeper into the darkness. I hope dad doesn't find us...