I used to read right after he would beat me, abuse me or cause some type of pain. It was my way to cope. I read all the time. I would run and hide from him in the crawlspace in my room that no one knew about. I tried read a book called Chapter Five with a flashlight. Every time I read the same book and didn't get very far into it because I didn't have much time before he came back and looked for me. I lived in fear and walked on egg shells every moment of my life. I only had one friend. I didn't think it waspossible for me to love. Nothingever used togo right. My life was worse than my nightmares. I'm Kelly, I'm 15 and this is my story or what I struggled through to survive, and what I got in return.
My real dad lived some where out east, unless he abandoned someone there too. He left my mom and I when I was five and put my life in the hands of my recovering alcoholic of a mother. Smart huh? When he left he, took her motivation and a reason to let alcohol go. She used to drink her whiskey and babble about how mad she was at my dad for leaving her with, "That kid who needed too much" as she would say. A month or two later she met a man named Arthur. As time went on she got remarried to him and within the year my mom gave birth to my little sister Lilly. Arthur convinced her not to drink while she was pregnant but after Lilly was born she picked up a bottle or beer an started smoking. I think the alcohol helps her do what is impossible to do sober, forget. Arthur asked her to stop once, she said no, and he just left it alone. She thought he loved her which is probably part of the reason my mom let him beat me. She didn't want to lose the father of the other daughter, not because she loves him, but rather because she doesn't want to be stuck with a little girl again. Whatever the reason she allowed him to hurt me, I was just waiting for the day I could fly away. I couldn't leave because ifI leave and he needs someone to hit it would be Lilly, or at leastI think he would. With me there I could take the blame whenI had to, and give him a way to let out his anger which would involve breaking and beating on, someone so I decided to take the fall.
I always thought about writing a diary or journal but i know what books are supposed to seem like and I have no writing ability what so ever. I knew my story probably wouldn't catch much attention if i write it and no one will ever know my story or my pain. Instead of writing I decided that it would be best if i recorded myself. I couldn't afford a video camera so I used an audio recorder with cassettes. I got this idea from a friend who used a recorder but for CD's. Even if i cant talk to anyone or get advice I wanted people to know what really happened to me and prove Arthur is not the great man everyone perceives him to be. Follow me and see the truth.
Kelly... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Smart, Caring, Good at Hiding Secrets,Shy, Sweet, Strong, Pretty, Reader Shy, Sweet, Strong, Pretty, ReaderLow Self Esteem, Antisocial, ScaredTalented with a GreatKind of Short, Brave, Dead Inside, Singing ability
Frankie (best friend)...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Caring, Sweet, Sincere, Has a Secret~ Drummer, Loves Music, Pushy,~~~~~~~~~lDetirmend, Writes Music and Poetry,~~~lDetirmend, Writes Music and Poetry,~~~ Loving, Strong, Fast Tall, Popular, Catching onto Kelly ~~~~~~~~Runner, Smart,~~~~
Arthur (stepdad).Mean, Angry, Unfair, Loser Harsh, Strict, Lilly's Dad~doesnt Care, Close mindedABUSIVE! Tormentor,Ignorant Tough, Concieted, Unfair ~~
~~~~~~~Lilly (little sister)....Daddy's Little Girl~~~Innocent, Naive, Shy,Ten, Sweet, Caring~,~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~