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A Changed Person

Poetry By: Lannie
Young adult

Fifteen year old girl is a changed person when she visits her family after spending three months in an inpatient program.

Submitted:Dec 15, 2008    Reads: 160    Comments: 3    Likes: 3   

Fourteen and alone, sent away from everyone
It was a little too late
Dependent, afraid to speak
Father, the boss, the mean old guy
But he was loved by me
Loved by my family
I wanted him to see
Understand, that I was growing up
Making decisions for myself

I lacked control
Lacked self worth
Starving, purging
Anorexia was my friend
My security blanket
The one thing that made me

Weeks, months passed
The fear left me
The fear of being alone
I was gaining independence
I was finding who I was
I realized I was fighting the control
That was being imposed on me
I found the one thing
The one thing that I
My control was being tested
My family
Was my test
My father, my parents
My voice was ready to be heard

Seeing my father
Brought back my dependence
But my strength returned
I was ready to defend
Who I was
I wanted to be heard
Treated as an adult
Make him realize
I knew the importance of life
I almost lost mine
I kept my feelings sane
I let them spill out

The next day came
I was fifteen
I had to return
To the place I came from
It was a nice visit
I felt in control
Control of my voice
Control of my identity
I didn't need to starve
I didn't need the scale
I didn't need the mirror
I needed me
I need who I am today
And not who I was


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