Holding on so tightly,

Afraid to lose control.

Smuthering the flame of my being.

Why can’t they let go?

They say they’ve been the ones,

That have been by my side.

When truthfully they’re the cause of the pain.

I had never been able,

To win the love I wanted,

Back when I actually wanted it.

Now that I’ve given up,

Of course they turn around.

They knew I was hurting,

For all that time.

But they just stood back and watched,

As I tore myself apart.

They never stepped in to help.

They never took my hand.

They didn’t even comfort me,

Until they realized my life was on the line.

They didn’t try to help,

Until they realized I was dying.

Is that really how low I’d have to stoop,

To gain back something I never had?

Take a step back and realize,

That this is not who I am.

They’ve killed everything,

That defined who I was.

Now they mock who I am,

Who they turned me in to.

They say I’m only brining them down.

But it’s their fault to beging with.

They’re the cause for all this.

It’s their fault—not mine.

They killed me,

And all I stood for.

But I will never let go.

I will not forget my slayed demon.

When the time comes,

I will go after it and save it.

I will bring it back to life.

This is not a home.

I cannot stay here.

I cannot stay where I don’t belong.

But I must wait,

Maybe forever…

I must wait for the right time.

I cannot leave until,

I put things right.

They are the cause for all this pain.

They’re mistakes have cost me my life.

I’m not even alive.

I’m among the walking dead.

Up alll night,

Never sleep in the day.

So go ahead.

Take away the last part of me.

But just remember when I pull away,

That you are the cause.