Invisibility

I see you standing by the classroom door waiting for your friends

They’ll be here any minute to discuss the latest trends.

I can’t stop looking at your beautiful tanned skin or your big green eyes

Something about you makes me stop and mesmerize.

I look up from my Science book carefully every once in a while

I just can’t think of anything more beautiful than your wonderful smile.

Your friends arrive and you all start to laugh and quietly talk

As the girl that you all like goes past with that model like walk.

You all stop and take a minute to admire and stare

As I realize once again that you don’t even notice I’m there

I hold back the tears and try to read on ahead

But all I want to do is go and cry on my bed.

The teacher arrives and opens the classroom door

Everyone enters but I am still trying to hold myself together on the floor.

I finally go in, place my books and find my seat

I pass you smiling but me you do not greet.

I sit there in a dream thinking about life

And dream about what it’d be like to one day be your wife.

I can see us so happy in a nice little place

With a couple of kids and a puppy to chase.

I wish you could see me and know how I feel

But then I wake up and come back to what is real.

You don’t know my name and nor do you care

All you know about me is that I have a tendency to stare.

I wish I could just tell you and have you give me a chance

I really love Football, I’m funny and also love to dance!

Then I see her the perfect girl you all admire

The one with the eyes, the hair, everything I desire.

You look at her the same way that I look at you

And it kills me to see that she looks back at you too.

She smiles at you sweetly and flicks her perfect hair

Your face lights up and I try not to care.

The bell rings at last and my eyes start to fill

I realize I can’t make you love me against your own will.

I get up to leave and I trip up on my lace

I try to stop going down but end up on my face.

My books are scattered and my heart feels so numb

How on earth could I ever have been so dumb.

To think that this boy that perfect ray of Sun

would ever see simple little old me as the one.

I get up off the floor and fix my shoe lace

There you are in front of me holding my pencil case.

You give it back and ask if I’m alright

I nod frantically my smile has never been this bright.

You smile back and help me pick up my books

I can’t believe how increcible he looks.

He gives me my things as he smiles and heads for the door

What just happened, I don’t think I’m invisible anymore!

Not anyone can wipe this smile off of my face

Because today I was acknowledged by the one and only Chase.

I don’t feel invisible anymore I can feel myself appear

I really don’t know why before I had so much fear.

My heart is beating fast and my smile is still there

Just at the thought that he had even stopped to care.

I know it may sound silly and it may mean nothing at all

But I really hope there is now a chance he’ll ask me to the Senior Ball.

The nights are so cold and the weeks pass at school

And I realize once again that I am a mindless daydreaming fool.

That girl you all fancy the perfect one that looks like a doll

Asked you out the other day and invited  you to the Ball.

You didn’t even hesitate you agreed without a thought

Seeing this for me was what it must feel like getting shot.

My insides were on fire and the pain was unreal

I’d give anything for this moment to pass so I can feel.

You give her your number, a hug and a kiss

I watch in silence, I really can’t take any more of this!

I just want to go away again just dissapear

And be that weird invisible girl that  noone could hear.

I see you so happy and wish that it could be me

That girl who is so perfect and the one that you see

But here I am again sitting on the floor

Looking up from my Science book as you stand by the door.

You stand there alone again waiting for your friends

Who’ll be here any moment to discuss the latest trends.

But now there is a difference every morning when I stare

She is beside you, your holding her it seems so unfair!

But I guess I’ll have to deal with it because that will never be me

I’m always gonna be the invisible one you don’t really see

So I’ll sit here and look up from my books every once and a while

Just to get a glimpse of your wonderful smile.

I know it’s not enough but it will just have to do

Because only in my dreams will I ever be with you.