Fill my lungs with air and open my eyes
my life continues as my love dies
Hopeless, scared, petrified.
God, I'm so scared; I search for a place to hide
My mind is swimming with the memories of my past, swallowing me in it's unending cyclone
Tearing me apart from the ones I love, ripping away my desires, forcing me to be alone
Good God, please, save me from this hell I'm burning in I can't
take it any longer
My hope is thinning, my demons growing stronger
My heart is thundering loudly in my ears,
while my past is telling me I can't do it, the feeling of worthlessness brings me to tears
I only want to make Daddy proud, Why can't I -------ing do
Why don't you love me, why don't you trust me, why is it every time we talk it feels like a combat?
I put all my hope in you and yet you ruin everything
tell me you'll get better but nothing is changing!
The world is so big and I'm so small
How the hell can I change anything at all?
The lies turn to truth and the truth turns to lies
The reflection in the mirror is what I despise, see the tears in my eyes? I have fallen yet I can't arise. Tell you I'm alright and cover myself with a disguise, as everything begins to crumble and my future dies. It isn't a surprise with the monsters that replace butterflies, I won't be able to take it when I am surrounded with goodbyes.
Try and run but my fears are oh so faster
pretend everything is perfect, but on the inside it's a disaster
Don't worry, I'll survive, after all it's what I do best
Won't do anything, cause you'll never be impressed
Fill my lungs with air and open my each eye
my life continues as I begin to die