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You are the bad influence.

Submitted:Mar 19, 2013    Reads: 18    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   

The voices in my head say that you
are evil. I believe them.
After all, they told me to smoke,
they told me to have sex.
They told me to run away from
home and not come back.
They told me my brother was an alien
and my sister was Chinese.
Which in my mind is basically the same.
Anyway they told me that the penguins
would take over the world, and that
math class was a waste of time.
They told me that stepping out in
front of a moving truck was the
right thing to do. I believed them.
So now I'm dead because the voices
told me to drop out of school, to smoke
and drink alchohol, and to have sex
and get pregnant, and to run away from
everything I knew. Then they told me that
I was a mistake, and that killing myself helped
make the world a better place.
So now I'm standing in heaven and I see
families embracing with tears in their
eyes and warmth in their hearts.
I see smiles and people with faces of peace.
And St. Peter says, 'you are not allowed to enter,
only look. Because you made the wrong choices.
And you blamed it on the voices.'
I am thrown back to Earth, back into my
bed, where I was thinking this up.
And I realize that I am not going to
let that happen to me. Because the voices
in my head say that they are not in my head,
they are coming from you. You are the wrong
decision, the one who showed me the wrong way
to live. You took advantage of me. When I was weak.
But I'm not anymore.
And I'm not going to listen to you. So stop with
your sick game, I will not let you win.
Because the voices in my head tell me you are evil.
And I believe them. Because for once,
they are telling me the truth.
And for once, they are saving my life.


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