Made sick by all of this, poisoned
by your hypocrisy.
All that you taught me about
I hardly see any of in you
But I press on, trying hard not to
give in to your increasing madness,
But it sometimes becomes too
difficult to resist,
The aura which you produce;
Pleasing to the untrained eye, like
a caramel apple.
Its delicious skin concealing the
poison which lies within it,
And though I know what hides in
I am still forced to eat it, day
And every time I do I can feel
The slow decaying of that which I
have known to be good
And yet when I feed you the same
You spit it back in my face
And curse me for daring to do such
a thing to you
Shrunken and weakened by all of
Your verbal beatings becoming too
much to bear
Becoming less and less able to fend
The weight of your discriminating
words dragging me through the mud,
I begin to submit myself to
Allowing it to happen, unable to
And later, when no one is
When no one is there to see me, to
When I am too weak and unwilling to
I allow myself to fall into the
And as I drag the blade across my
Feeling the pain which it
But also feeling some of the poison
drain out with the blood
Knowing that what I am doing is
wrong, but unable to resist.
And as I sit there, letting some of
the poison drain away,
I am shocked by the fact that I
have been reduced to this,
But am unable to stop the madness,
unable to fight the feeling,
Having been made numb by all the
pain I have endured
And continue to endure
Tell me, do you even know the
poison of your words?
Surely you must. Surely, you must
know what you are doing.
You must! For, even if you hadn't
Surely you would have discovered by
What your discrimination has
reduced me to.
Surely you must understand what has
Surely you must! Only a fool would
The idea that you might, by some
slim chance, not understand,
Is only a fleeting thought, for
even I know better.
But yet I still love you? What sort
of madness could have caused this?
I try to deny it, but in the end I
know the truth, so dark and cold as it is.
But it cannot be! Surely this could
not have happened to me!
But yet I know it has, and I know
that I will forever be