Confessions of a Teenage Heartache

I told him I could change into what he wanted,

But that's okay,

I can just leave with my heart on my sleeve.

But, I need you today.

I love him a lot,

Feels like I always have,

And I can't seem to let go.

As long as he's happy.

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Remeber when you couldn't go a day without holding my hand?

Now you act so depressed and selfish around me.

I feel so bad,

Knowing I hurt you so bad,

And I promise you I won't ever do it again.

Don't look me in the eye anymore,

It makes me feel worse.

I'm sorry.

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We used to be like sisters,

So close,

But we just grew far apart,

So far.

I changed around,

Turned into a peppier person,

And kept all my problems to myself.

But, it's okay,

I'm still here for you, no doubt.

You can still count on me for anything.

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You control me so much,

The only way I can make you happy with me,

Is being your "girlfriend."

It makes me sick with myself,

Knowing that I'm hurting you,

And hurting myself.

Truth is, I don't want to be with you at all,

I just hate that you're a total DICK to me when I'm not.

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You're SELFISH!

You're an evil girl!

But I'm your best friend.

I don't mind it,

But you're very selfish and mean.

I'm here for you through whatever,

But it's cold, what you're doing.

I gave something up for you,

Why don't you do the same?

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Dear Penguin,

I'm sick of it.

You bully me around,

And expect me to sit there and be so nice to you?

No, I won't have it!

Love,

You're Past

_ _ _

Remember me?

Yeah, screw you.

Love,

Alyssa Jeanette Ray

P.S. I hate you and what you've become, what she's made you, but I'll always love you.