My breath is so scarce,
Trying to decide
What to do with you.
Do I hate you, hold my grudge,
Or do I accept I can't stay mad, and hug you when I can?
Lately, I've wanted to hug you,
But I don't want any emotions shared...
I just want to remember what it feels like,
Your warm hugs and smiles.
In my bitterness,
I ignored all your pleads and sobs,
Not seeing how much they were meaning.
I'm afraid of you,
No, not anymore...
I conquer my fears of you,
And make myself the bigger person.
You can't act strong all of the time,
You know you're falling through,
And all I want to do...
Is hug you.
What more can I say?
I know, I still feel the thorns jabbing my heart because of you,
But I'm going to be the bigger person,
And let go of the grudges.
Let me fall,
Pick myself back up,
And smile at you.
Wait until the end of October,
When I stop
Constantly ignoring my pains.
Where I am the bigger man.