I looked at all of the scattered college brochers spread out along the length of my bed. With one swipe of my arm, they were all laying in a small tub, that I liked to call my trashcan. I sat down on the edge of my bed, and pulled my red hair in front of me. "I just don't know what to do," I said.
"Lana, you're one of the smartest people I know, why are you worrying about which college to attend?" Danny asked, as he perched on the edge of my computer desk. His eyes swept across my neat room; the one that had never had one thing out of place. Of course, with the exception of the brocheres.
"It's not just that Danny, it's just that I don't know whether I should go straight to college, start work, or just take some time off. And, I don't want to do something that might mess up our relationship," I said, looking up at him shyly.
I still got butterflies in my stomach when I saw him, and my heart still skipped a beat when I heard his name. I had experienced falling in love with Danny, and I didn't want to leave him. I still couldn't believe that someone like him could have ever fell in love with someone like me.
Danny, was outgoing, and he talked to everybody at our old school. He talked to Juniors, Seniors, Freshman, Sophmores, age didn't matter to him. He wasn't scared to walk up to anybody and tell them exactly what he thought about them. Of course, it was only ever good things. It was almost impossible not to like Danny. He may not be the hottest guy in the school, but with his black hair, and olive colored skin, he was crush worthy.
I on the other hand, was shy, and didn't talk to many people. Just a few of the people in my advanced classes. Thin red hair, and dull green eyes, was not a real attention catcher. I spent most of my time during school studying, or reading a good book. Most people didn't realize who I was until I started dating Danny. It was a dream come true. I remember it like it was yesterday, when it was really five months ago.
Danny had walked up to me in the library searching for a good book. He had looked over at me while I was searching through one of the cases, and asked my opinion in what books were good, and which one's weren't.
I hadn't realized he was talking to me, until he had tapped me on the shoulder, and re-asked. By then, I was blushing and apologizing for not paying attention. He had told me it was no problem, and that I was a very beautiful girl. This caused me to blush even more, and after that, he had made very frequent visits to the library. Three weeks later, he had asked me out, while we were laughing in the floor of the mystery section.
"You don't have to worry about me, hon. It's not like I would ever forget you, because you are the most beautiful chicketa that I've ever had the pleasure of laying my eyes on. Didn't you tell me, before we started going out that you wanted to go to college straight out of highschool? Don't let me get in the way of that," Danny said, standing up, and walking over to my bed, and sitting down beside me.
I looked over at him, and laid my head on his shoulder. "I thought that is what I wanted to do, but now I'm not so sure that I want to keep on and on studying. I haven't even had the chance to explore life. What about me and you spending a year together or something? I love you," I said, as I looked up at him, beginning to trace circles in his dark blue jeans.
Danny's arm wrapped around my waist, and his head laid against mine. "I would love that more than anything else in the world, but I don't think that your mother and father would. You know that I love you more than my life, and that is why I'm going to support you in anything you do," Danny said.
"I know," I mumbled. My parents didn't exactly like Danny. Mostly because he decided that he wasn't going to go to college. His parents weren't exactly rich, and they didn't have the money to send him and his little brother to college. He decided that he wanted his brother to have a better education, and so his choice was made up. I thought it was the sweetest thing in the world, but my mother and father thought more of it as Danny not being good enough for me. If I decided that I didn't want to go to college right away, they would think that it was because of Danny.
Danny stood up, and bent down in front of me. "Lana, we've been together for nearly six months now, and can you believe that I can't stand being without you for more than a few minutes? I can't breathe without you anymore. I never thought love was for someone like me. I especially never thought that I would meet someone as wonderful as you! You're so beautiful, and smart, and you have the whole world ahead of you, and yet your with me, an average guy, that's not all that smart, and doesn't have two nickles to rub together. I don't have very many options, but you do. Tell me what's on your mind," He said, as he took both of my hands in his. He stroked them lightly with his thumb, as his brown eyes searched my green eyes.
I've read more Romance books then I can count on my hands and feet. I've heard about love at first sight, and having that feeling that told you you were meant to be with one person. I never thought that I was going to have those feelings, but Danny showed me all new things. Things I never expected I would have before. I bent my head down to him, and pressed my lips lightly to his. Danny kissed back with slow movements of his head. He knew exactly how to drive me crazy.
I pulled away after a few seconds. "Danny, we've been together for nearly six months now, and can you believe that I can't stand being without you for more than a few minutes? I can't breath without you anymore. I never thought love was for someone like me. I especially never thought that I would meet someone as wonderful as you! You're so amazing, and wonderful. You've given an all new meaning to life. I just want to spend every second that I have with you, and no less. I don't want to go to college, because that would mean less time with you, and even more time studying! I need a sign to lead me to the right choice, and I can't pick it on my own!" The corners of my eyes were stinging. Darn me being so emotional.
Danny stood up, and bent down so that his lips were covering mine again, but only for a few moments. "Every second with you is a second worth living. Whether we're sitting here not talking, or even when we're fighting. I'll help you make your decision, but please don't tell me that we have to break up for you to go to college," He said, his voice husky, and enough to drive me up the wall.
I was a good girl, I had always been innocent, and Danny had never tried to challenge that, or push me into anything. "Danny I'm ready," I whispered as he broke away from me. He had a place where he would draw the line where he wouldn't push me, but I knew that I was ready. My parents were gone, so we had the house all to ourselves, and although that wasn't trustworthy, I would tell them.
Danny pulled away from me quickly. "Lana, you don't have to do this. I'm going to marry you, and I can wait for that," He said, his eyes wide with surprise.
"I know, and that is exactly why I want to. We're going to get married anyways, why not show each other that we love each other now," I whispered, slightly embarrassed.
"I promise that I'll be with you when you wake up," He whispered, as he crawled onto the bed beside me.
I woke up with a start, breathing deeply and looking around my room. I swallowed, and noticed that it was 7 in the morning. I could feel my stomach churning and I quickly crawled out of bed and made my way towards my bathroom.
I barely made it to the toilet before the vomit rose in my throat. I managed to make it just in time, and that was where I spent the next two minutes of my morning.
Why was I so sick? I've never been this sick before. I made my way back towards my room, a towl held to my mouth. I found my phone laying on the bedside table, and I pressed one, and then talk.
"Lana, how are you honey?" Danny asked happily from the other line.
"Danny, I need to tell you something, something important," I said.
"What is it? Do I need to come over? Have you made your decision on whether you're going to college or not?" He asked, his voice was tinged with worry now.
It had been nearly two weeks ago since me and him had... and it suddenly made sense to me why I was feeling the way that I was. I had to take parenting classes when I was in school. "Danny, it's imporant like I said. Please come over!" I said, and then without waiting for his answer I hung up the phone.
I went into the bathroom, and brushed my teeth, and cleaned my face. I walked back into my room and looked around nervously, running my hand through my hair over and over again. When Danny knocked on my front door I nearly jumped out of my skin. I made my way quickly through the living room, and pulled open the door.
Danny was there, in his pajama's and no t-shirt. He hadn't been awake long, and I had made him so worried that he spent no time at all coming over. I fell against him, and hugged him tightly. Tears were already slipping down my cheeks as I realized what had happened.
"Lana baby what's wrong?" Danny asked, sweeping me off of my feet, and walking into my house, and away from my nosy neighbors. He sat down on the couch, and cuddled me close to his bare chest. "Were your parents mean to you or what?" He asked as he moved his hand to dry away my tears.
"Danny, I think I'm pregnant," I whispered through my sobs.
Danny's eyes got wider, and his hand slid away from my cheek limply. The color drained away from his face, and he swallowd loudly. "Are you sure?" He asked.
"Morning sickness, check," I whispered. I wasn't sure that I could make my voice any louder.
"I'm so sorry," he said, his thumb already drying my tears again.
"Danny, you're not mad?" I asked.
"Of course not baby. If I wasn't worried about this ruining your carrer then I would probably be jumping for joy right now. I'm sorry that I did this to you. I'm sorry that I put you through this. I don't want your parents to yell at you for this, so I'll understand if you get rid of this," he said. His mind was everywhere, he was saying so many different things.
He wasn't mad, he was happy, but he understood if I wanted to get rid of the baby? "I love you," I mumbled.
He swallowed again, and then a smile spread across his face. "I love you too," He said quickly but just as quietly.
"I'm not sure that I am, I'm saying that it's a possibility, will you still love me when I'm fat and ugly?" I asked.
"Baby, in my eyes you'll never be fat, and you'll never be ugly. You'll only get more beautiful from here," He said, bending his head and kissing my nose.
And in that moment, I had made my decision about college. One small -well actually large- choice had helped me out more than I had ever expected. If it turned out that I was going to have Danny's baby, I was going to wait to go to college until I had the baby, and I was going to go to work. If I wasn't, then I was going to start college, and get my degree.
I rubbed my stomach and smiled. Thanks to my possibly new friend, I had found the answer to my current problem.