me,' I plucked a petal. 'He loves me not.' Huh? The only thing
left was the stem. I look down at the daisy in shock. That cant
be right. But as i look down at the pile of plucked daisy's i
cant deny the truth. Five flowers all with the same answer, that
cant be coincidence.
yell out loud "I don't believe you. He does love me, he tells me
all the time." I stomp the petals and stems beneath my feet then
collapse to the ground crying.
"He has to
love me or then what is everything for?" I raise my hand up to my
face and start crying harder. "He has to love me." This time it
comes out as a whisper.
you ok?" I look up to see an old man looking down at me. His eyes
are creased up with worry and i realise how strange i must look
curled up on the ground with a puffy face, crying and talking to
fine." I manage to murmer. I start to get up pushing my tangled
hair off my face.
me help you up." He reaches a hand towards me and i cringe back
without thinking falling back onto the grass.
you im fine." I let out in a strangled whisper.
at me in shock pulling his hand back. I quickly get up and start
to run home not looking at the old man as i push past him. The
scenery blurs past me as i try to run away from the feelings of
fear that the old man has sparked in me.
reach my street i slow down and try to compose myself, I don't
want him to see me like this. I smooth my hair down and wipe my
eyes and feel presentable enough to go to my front door.
As soon as
i step through the front door the yelling starts. "Where have you
been? Its past dinner time. What are you wearing? You stepped out
of the house looking like that?"
and try to ignore it making my way to the kitchen to cook dinner.
"How many guys hit on you when you were out? They must have with
you looking like that, is that why your dressed like that, to
slut around town?" i look down at my jeans and singlet and the
tears start to fall.
not, i would never...... i love you....." I start to mummer but
my words are cut off by the sharp low to my cheek. Even though i
know it will make him angrier I raise my hands to protect myself.
This causes him to become enraged and the blows start raining
down hard and fast, all over my body in places where no one will
notice. Always in places where no one will notice, except for the
I fall to
the floor and start crawling towards the back door, crying,
trying to escape. In between his panting he mutters the same
thing over and over again. "Dirty whore, you'll never learn." The
same thing he always says. It ends with him ripping off my
clothes and raping me. I lay there trying not to make him angrier
looking up at his angry face that just seems to look right
done i pull on my clothes and crawl out to the backyard sitting
amongst the daisys. Pulling them out of the ground and plucking
the petals one by one. Eventually he comes out and sits next to
me wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into the warm
circle of his arms. The tears are long dried on my face by
Annabel. You know i love you...... it wont ever happen again i
promise.... i mean it this time...... ill always love you......
your ok....... ill change i promise...." his empty words barely
register in my numb brain i just sit there absently plucking the
daisy petals, staring at my hands and thinking about what my
gravestone will read.
Maria; girlfriend of Aiden Smith. Well loved girlfriend who just
happened to be very accident prone. The tears start to fall again
but i hardly notice them, i just keep plucking daisy petals
making the pile in front of me bigger.
leaves i pluck the last daisy in the patch of garden im sitting
in. Pretty soon im up to the last few petals, - 'He loves me,' I
plucked a petal. 'He loves me not.' Huh? The only thing left was