"Hey, dude! Where are you rushing off to??!", Terry shouted after me.
"Nothing much, just gotta check out a few things with Ms.Naomi....you leave without me", I replied , turning back momentarily to answer him.And WHAM i slammed into someone, a girl I had seen around in my class, I guess her name was Cathy or Carrie or something on those lines.
I said sorry and bent down to help her pick the books she had dropped.
But she didn't.She had an absolutely blank expression on her face and was frozen in place,as if she was in shock or something.
"I'm really sorry for that, Cathy , or was it Carrie, I'm really sorry! I was in a hurry to meet Ms.Naomi"
"That's fine" and then she mumbled something inaudible.
Wait! Did she say something?!Her voice was so timid and soft, I had to listen hard to get what she was saying.
"I'm sorry, I didn't get you"
"I said it's fine .............and that it's Carmen, my name"
"Oh! Carmen?! I'm sorry for getting it wrong. And are you fine?! I'm really sorry, but i gotta rush...I hope you'll understand"
"Yes, of course......I understand"
I saw him as he glided away elegantly, yes glided, Jared Muller's gait cannot be called simple walking.
He was exactly the oppsoite of me, elegant, sweet, popular, famous, rich............everything I wasn't.
I was graceless, bitter, the most infamous person in the whole college, I was a scholarship student....but there was something I had in common with Jared, we were smart.
We both had 9.3 GPA's.
But he never noticed me....of course he never did.
But I knew what I had to make sure He'd notice me. He'd notice enough of me to never forget me. He'll be mine. Soon enough.
"What the hell! Again!!" I banged the door of my locker.
I was sick and tired of this shit now. It has been going on for too long. This was getting out of hand now
This as like the 50th time I was holding another letter in my hand, a letter I wished I hadn't received in the first place.
It was always the same.
"My dear Jared
I love you. I know that you think you don't know me. But open the eyes of your heart and you shall find me, right there, standing beside you.
Still waiting for you.
I'll love you till the morning light stops shining down everyday, till the stars stop shining someday, till the wind stops flowing everyday
Love you my love, forever and after
Your one and only true love"
And the worst part wasn't the lovesick message. No. The worst part was that it was written in blood, and it was wet. Someone had written it in school, right now. I mean who could be crazy enough to write a love letter in their own blood. It was beyond me. But I knew one thing. This person was crazy. She had been writing these letters for the last five months. It was always the same thing. How she loved me and considered herself to be my true love, and was waiting for me. Sometimes it had a few lines of romantic poems, or just how much she loved me.
That was not it. Everyday I received a red rose with another one of these weird notes. Sometimes accompanied with photographs of me with my friends, at a party, alone in the library, every place I had ever been.
It had become too much for me and was starting to creep me out, and it seemed as I didn't spend a minute not thinking about her. Who was she? Why was she doing this? The whole school knew I was going out with Courtney and that I loved her with all my heart, all my life, then who could try and come in between us?!
Courtney! Shit!! I had promised to meet her at the cafe at 6.30 pm. And it was 6.15 already! I flung the letter in the nearest dustbin and rushed out the gates. COurtney didn't like waiting. ANd I couldn't wait to meet her either.
I saw him fling my letter in the dustbin and ruch out the gates. I knew why he was in a hurry. It had to be Courtney. That b*tch! Why did it have to be Courtney of all the people?! She had everything, and she still wasn't satisfied. She was the captain of the cheerleading team, beautiful, popular, all the guys drooled after her. Then why did she have to have Jared too!
But it wasn't gonna be for long. He was going to be mine.
SIX DAYS LATER
This couldn't be happening! Why her?!Why Courtney! What had she done to anyone .She didn't deserve this. She didn't deserve to die. I couldn't stop crying as they lowered her casket into the ground. It was the last time I would be seeing her. I could feel my breath ebbing away as I saw her disappearing. She had been my reason for living, for staying here. Now I had no other choice. I had to leave.I oculdn't bear to live in the same place as she had breathed her last. I had decided. I would be moving away from here with mom, and no one would know about where I went. I shall sever every contact, all ties I ever had with courtney.
I was moving away to someplace known to no one in this town. I knew no one could find me where I was going.
Stupid stupid Jared! What was he thinking! He can run away from me?! Of course he can't! How can he be seperated from his one and only true love. I knew he would understand it, when I told him WHY I had to get rid of Courtney. She wasn't right for him.
I was standing outside his new home. It was so pretty!
I fiddled with my hair. Would he like the roses!?How would he react when he realised it had been me all the time! I knew he would be happy. Maybe a little shocked. But happy nonetheless. I shall make him happier than that b*tch Courtney. I shall be there for him forever.
Who could be knocking at the door at such an hour. No one knew us here.
I came downstairs, rubbing my eyes. I was still thinking about the nightmare, about the night Courtney had died. It always ended with me shouting for her to swerve the car to her left, to the right was the cliff. And I could hear another girl laughing behind me. I knew her, but I couldn't seem to place her. Who was she?And why was she important? I was still having that nagging feeling of uncomfort, when I opened the door to the bright sunshine. I looked down at the stairs. And she was standing there. The girl from my dreams. With blood-red roses in her hand. She was mumbling something. I strained my ears to listen to what she was speaking.
"-And you thought you could run away from me Jared? Me of all the people! You were supposed to know who your true love is. But nevermind. I won't hold it against you! I love you too much to do that. Oh Jared! you have made me wait for so long! Do you know what all things I had to do for you!! The roses, the letters! Oh!! And Courtney. I knew she had you under her spell, so I had to do that, you know. Get rid of her. But I kn-"
What?!What did she say right now, get rid of Courtney. This girl had killed Courtney. My one and truly love.
That was the last thought I had before I lost consciousness.