Self-Destruction

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I struggle with depression and this is just a poem I wrote one day to express my feelings.
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Submitted: June 04, 2016

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I don’t quite understand the way they look at me

Hate that’s unclear

And ever blind.

I don’t understand when their thoughts became my own,

A world of lies that I honed.

I believed every word,

Every insult,

Every

Little

Thing.

When they told me I was ugly

I tried to fit in.

I wore eyeliner and makeup and mascara too

But it all felt like a mask,

A persona I couldn’t see through.

When they told me I was too skinny

I tried to eat more

But how can I eat

When crap is all I see?

I tried to dress better,

Skirts, dresses and heels

When all I wanted

Was a hoodie to wear.

But I broke my ankles,

My back,

Shoulders too

Until eventually my skin became see-through.

I could see to my bones,

The way they shook when I walked

Each creak they made,

Just more breaking of my heart.

I could see winter,

My head now a season

The leaves of brilliance now dull and gray

Fading with every footstep of the way.

When I looked in the mirror I couldn’t see me,

But just a sad reflection of who I used to be.

The weird thing is,

It no longer hurts

When you accept the lies

You loathed the most.


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