Like They've Nothing Better To Do

Like They've Nothing Better To Do

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I'm not as crazy as you think I am

I stand here, wobbling

But I am completely on my own

Minus the crazy pay and subsidies

I dwell on the past

And dread the future

But when the lab rats find the cheese

__that I have left them

____I wonder if it'll taste good

Though I know it won't

Nothing I give anybody

__is desirable

I can't mash my head with butter

But my thoughts can be controlled

__by a lover

Where ever the Hell she must be

Ev'ry one says "she isn't here yet"

But I know the truth

"She just doesn't exist"

Dead to me

Because the punishment fits

Why the world can forgive others

__and not me

____is beyond my abilities to understand

Falling short is not fun

Who ever is doing this to me

__must be happy

They must get off on vengeance

Probably laughing their ass off

__like it's just so funny

But I bet they're not satisfied

I bet they couldn't be satisfied

__even if they destroyed the lives

____of the whole world

Evil doesn't rest

It won't be long

__before I am hit over my head

____and left for dead

I just know it

Nothing to understand about it

So I won't even try to grasp the reasons

__for all my suffering

Maybe I'm just a bad person

__and can't see it

Maybe the world is just a fucked up place

Going to waste

__like a dying spinning ball in space

Destroying itself

__because nobody knows any other way

I don't see an end to living this way

I can only see me obsessing over the problem

With information getting scrambled

__and mixed up in my head

Not grasping any bit of reality

I just know that the tip of thee iceberg

__will submerge itself

____with the rest of thee iceberg

And then I will know nothing

__and just be a mess

Splattering my own brains

__just to be freed from the nothingness

____with my blood on the world's hands

And it'll be so funny

__that the world will die laughing

And that will be thee end of me

Even in the most friendliest places

__I still remain a "nobody"

A "target" for republicans

And an "enemy" to God

My empty remains will crunch up

And the power to lose control

__will take over

____and I will lose my soul

And to the left

__and to the right

____there'll always be

______an endless fight

________to go on

__________and live right

But I will sink thee ors

__and park this ship

____far off and away from society

______and all the monsters

________that won't stop ruining me

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06-11-'16

D. L. Cannon