"The Part That Doesn't Change"

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taken from my book, "Interstate Freedom"

Submitted: June 30, 2016

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"The Part That Doesn't Change"

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Control me like a beast inside me

I'm struggling to know

__"just what's so wrong inside?"

I'm tempted to wait by the waters

That separate us all

When the dead speaks to the dying thousands

All the meaning!

ALL THE MEANING!!!!!

Whatever is so WRONG about it

Can never let the trap

__drag me back inside

I'm here before I'm there

__and then I'm

Quietly somewhere else!

If I struggle for the fire

__to consume me

I stumble on a path

__that leads

____to nowhere!

If I feel my burdens

I will wrap the truth

__around my head

Blindfold myself

__and be lead to my death

When the rainless skies

Muster up without even a sprinkle

I'll never giggle at the sight of another's

__middle finger

For I know I deserve this pain

I did this to myself

I'm going to Hell all the way

In a way I'm already in Hell

Because nobody can love me

But I don't feel, at all, sorry for myself

I'll find a way to put the world

__thru a living Hell

And maybe I'll feel justified

Maybe I won't

Maybe I'll just continue

__to feel like cutting every ones' throats

Murder can be very beautiful

But every beauty fades

Why sit here and kill anybody

When satisfaction never gets met?

The ticking time bomb in my head

Proves to the world

__I can't have a gun

But that only makes life better

I'm not behind bars

__waiting for thee electric chair

I'm just unlovable

Because I did what I did

__already by far

Now I sit down

__as if I was in a car

And I know if I stand up now

I would only be headed out the door

__just to hit a vaporizer

And shortly after

__just wonder "what the fuck is wrong with me?"

The most important chuckle I can cough up

Is the laughing at myself

__that has always been a must

The dust that showers over me

Flooding my surroundings

All I have

__is what I own

____and what I put out

______and produce

Going a long way never seemed harder

Going bonkers has never been easier

I've been left to self destruct

And for some reason

__that is my fault

A simple twist on a dead bolt

__on a door

____goes without saying

______that "it's impossible"

So I will face the facts

I am happy with who I am

And of God doesn't like me

__I'm not thee only one

There's a lot of men who dodged punishment

Just to be punished in other ways

At least I can get by

__while paying the price

At least!

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06-22-'16 #3

D. L. Cannon


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