Why cant i move on?

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: July 06, 2016

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sorry about bad english and usage of bad grammer but u can understand.......
hmm.....i dont know what to do.....i dont know who i was.....people say that we change.....i dont know if i had changed or not.....because i dont remember who i was.....its not like have amnesia or some mental disease......i just dont remember anything......i know what kind of bad things i have done.....but i dont remeber my character....the only thing i know now is her.....i love her.....more than anything...but why?......thats the question i have.......i want an answer.....i want to find it myself....she is so far away from me.....i dont know how she speaks or about her attitude or character......so y cant i move on like others......y am i stuck on to her....y do i remember her whenever i see girls.....thats the main reason i need to meet her.......it has been 10 years.....i have to meet her......i do have good friends now.....but y cant i forget those people whom i want to forget....y is my life like this....out of everyone y was it her....and y she should be the one to move to another country....y her....i feel like iam in some movie which has a bad end.......i never thought the only one i liked would move to some another country....well it doesnt hapen to almost anyone in the world....there are very less number of people with this kind of situation.....these kind of things generally happen only in novels and movies....and some which happen in reality are failures....am i one them...am i one of those failures....y the hell should the one i like be so extraordinary.....y couldnt she be a noral person...and then again would i be in same state if she were a normal person....would i have loved her so much if she was a normal person....or am i the only one who is thinking she is not normal....is she just better than me or am i below the average or is it my imagination.....i want to see her...talk to her...know her better....know everything about her....every detail....i want t be special to her....like the only me she ever met.....i dont want her telling me that she met someone like me....she met me.....the only me....i want her to know about me....show intrest in me.....i lave her....or is it not....iam not sure....because i have never known what love is.....well i mean love between male and female....i love my parents,friends and family people say....but how did they know what love is....even i think i love my parents,friends and family....but i dont think i know what love is...do u....do people really know what love is....or r they in some kind of perception that what they feel towards each other is love....everyone says love has different forms like mothers love and faters love.....is it really different or is it just that they show it in a different way...and if people say something like attraction.....isnt it like lust not even attraction....i am attracted towards many things......but how can people be attracted towards opposite sex....isnt it lust not attraction....attraction has a whole different meaning dont u think....or is it my imagiaton or overthinking....i think i love her....do i really think that way or am i really in love....people say that love happens many times and we can get over it...but is that really true....i mean we can never forget the love towards our parents even if they are gone right.....how can someone get over that....i think people just stop showing the pain they feel.....they have to get used to it....how can people move on in love....its like immpossible.....thats the only reason there are more bad people than good people in the world....in a love movie villan is the one who wasnt giving up till th end......even he was fighting for his love....who was the one who set rules that fights should be in this way...isnt hat unfair.....because i dont think i can get over her.....or to be more presise....iam unale to get over or move on.....thats the only reason iam intrested in knowing how people can getover....i want to know more about myself....more about people around me so that i can know the ways of thinking......i love her....but the other people who also loved her moved on......then y cant i......am i abnormal or is she the one......or is it that they never loved her....they just thought they loved her...or am i the one who is scared to move on....i dont know...people around me are getting over things like its nothing....we are the same right.....then y cant i get over and move on.....


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