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Chapter 32 (v.1) - Chapter 32

Submitted: August 01, 2016

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Chapter 32

Dom found Kerim sitting on the bench staring out into the lake. His hair was messed up from running his hand through it so much.

He had been sitting there thinking over and over again what he had done.

"Kerim."

"I tried to kill her...again."

"You didn't mean to."

"It doesn't matter if I meant to or not. I can't be with her."

"Don't be so rash. Juliet doesn't fault you."

"She should. I lost it and I hurt her. I promised that I would never do that again and I did. I can't be trusted."

"Kerim you have been controlling yourself for over two years. You're doing excellent. Problem was that you haven't gone to your psychiatric meetings."

"I've been busy."

"You're going to start them up again, starting on monday. I can't have you acting all crazy on my wedding next saturday." Dom chuckled slightly.

"This isn't funny."

"I know." He sighed. "Never thought this would happen but it has. I don't know why Juliet has been acting cold but it apparently snapped you back to your old self."

"She was embarrassed because she thought I was going to propose. It all comes down to that stupid thing. If I hadn't tried to propose last year we would never have talked about marriage. She wouldn't have been confused about what she wanted. Then she wouldn't have thought I was proposing again...I hate this."

"Women are always confused about everything. When it comes to your kind, pride is something that is difficult to get hurt but when it does...well we know the result. I think you should both talk about it again. If that embarrasses her more maybe Delilah or Katherine can help. Although Katherine might lean her towards getting away from you. She's mad about the..you know." Dom made a motion with his hand towards his neck.

"I'm not surprised. Seems that Katherine has a fiery temper."

"She does when defending her friends."

"What about you?"

"Oh I have a temper and I act quickly like you but with more thoughtfulness. Now I admit that when I saw Juliet's neck I tried very hard not to get angry. I know you and before it would've been something normal coming from you. Since that was not the case I was open to listen to what happened. Turns out that we need to work on it. You love her and she loves you. You're both the same and that helps understand each other."

Kerim leaned back on the bench. "I can't forgive myself. I keep thinking about it."

"You'll get over it. Now come on. I hope we can find somewhere that's open to eat, unless you're ready to go home and face the family."

"God no, Lucifer probably wants to kill me."

"He would if he knew. Juliet's wearing a turtle neck shirt to cover her neck."

"I still don't think that I can face her right now."

"Alright. Let's find a place to eat. A bar is probably open for the football game. We can stay there a while and then go home in the evening."

Kerim nodded and they stood up, heading for their vehicles.

 

"The meal went great, our families are gone and now we wait." Delilah sat down to rest on the couch.

Daniel sat next to her. He took off her sandals and started rubbing her feet. "What are we waiting for?"

"Oh right. I forgot that you didn't get the latest. Kerim and Juliet had an incident. We need to get it fixed." She sighed.

"Okay.."

Katherine came into the living room and sat on another couch. "Dom texted me. He's on his way with Kerim."

"Where's Juliet?"

"For some reason the emotional morning she had pushed her over to something else. She won't stop eating pie."

"What?"

"Yep. She's sitting at the counter digging right into the pan with a fork."

"We really have to fix this." Delilah raised her brows.

They sat in silence for a while. Juliet came in when she was finished with the pie. It had been a compulsive thing.

She kept going over the morning and wouldn't stop eating. It would've helped if she had egg rolls but she had gotten whatever was in hand.

It hadn't helped of course. She still felt like she was going to cry at any moment. She didn't know what the hell was wrong with her. She felt like she was having an emotional breakdown.

"Juliet."

She had been too into her thoughts that she hadn't heard Dom and Kerim arrive.

Kerim looked like he had been battling with himself all day. He looked rumpled with a broken spirit.

Her heart felt like it would stop at any moment.

"We've talked and you two are going back to your sessions on Monday. I'll make the appointments myself tomorrow." Dom spoke.

"In the meantime I think we should take a break."

Dom turned to Kerim surprised. They hadn't talked about that.

"A break?" Juliet frowned. "You want me to move out?"

"No, just...I can move to a different room." Kerim explained. "I don't want to hurt you...again."

He wasn't hurting her physically but this was far worse. She didn't know whether to cry or get mad. How could he decide without talking to her first?

"There's no need. I'll move out." There was a slight tinge of anger in her tone.

"This is why you need to keep seeing your shrink. There's no reason to get mad." Dom told her in a soothing tone.

She took a deep breath. "Since everything has been decided I'm going up to get a room." She made it to the doorway when Kerim reached out and grabbed her arm.

"I'm doing this because I don't want to lose you forever. I need to keep getting better and this is the way to do it."

She looked down at his hand then up to his face. "Don't touch me again unless I let you." Her voice was even and cold.

He released her and let her walk away.

"I think you just made things worse." Delilah smacked her lips. "She is going to hold that for a while."

"I disagree." Katherine looked at him. "What you did was wrong because it is violence against women. I can see the sincerity that you are sorry. I've come to see your emotions or whatever. If she would've done something to hurt you I guess I wouldn't have jumped to the conclusion that she abused you. I do however think that a break is necessary for you guys to get your lives in order again. All this crazy crap that has happened with Frederick, if it's even him, is throwing us through a loop. We can't stop our lives because of him. From now on we focus on ourselves again."

"Does that mean we should go back home?" Delilah asked. "I kind of do miss it and I want to get the babies' room ready."

Daniel nodded. "Katherine is right. We shouldn't stop everything because some stupid fugitive kid is threatening us, well Katherine mostly."

Katherine smiled slightly. "Well I want to go back home. It will be my last week before I officially move here so I want to spend it with my parents."

"I'm still going to keep the guards on you. I don't want anything to happen." Dom wasn't happy with this but he couldn't force her.

"Are we done here? I would like to go back upstairs." Kerim interrupted.

"Yes." Dom nodded.

Kerim turned and went to his room. Juliet was shoveling her things into a suitcase.

"I thought you were just going to move to another room."

"I am. I couldn't carry all of my clothes down the hall. This is easier."

"You could've left them here and come in to change or get what you needed. This isn't forever."

She turned on him. "How do we know that? How can you guarantee that we will be back together? I didn't even know you were going to want a break." She started pacing.

He stopped her and grabbed her arms. "I know because we love each other. I'm not letting you go, I just want us to be together like we were before. Katherine gave a small speech downstairs and you didn't hear it. She said that all this was crazy because of Frederick or something like that. We need to focus on ourselves, that was her point."

She stared up at him.

"I don't want to hurt you again like I said. Please understand."

"It's kind of hard when I don't want to be separated from you."

"If we do this, when we get together again...I swear I won't ever hurt your pride again."

"What are you talking about?"

"I know that you thought I was proposing and that hurt you. You didn't want it, then you did. We haven't been taking care of ourselves emotionally and until we do, then we can get married."

Her eyes started blurring with tears again. "You would still want to marry me after I've been acting crazy?"

He let go of her arm and raised his hand to move away her hair from her face. "Of course, if you'll have me."

She shook her head. "I don't believe you or maybe it's because I don't want to believe. I feel out of sorts."

He clicked his tongue. "I'll make you believe." He let her go and walked to his dresser. Going through his sock drawer he took out the small velvet box he had put in there for safe keeping.

Juliet could only stare as he walked back to her.

"Usually people do this with promise rings but it'll be a two for one." He got down on one knee in front of her. He opened the box and showed her the ring.

She covered her mouth with her hand to hold in the sob that wanted to come out.

"I promise that I will go back to my therapy and that I will not ever stop it. Doesn't matter if there's a guy like Frederick doing stupid shit or other life things that happen. I can't promise not to ever embarrass you again because that does happen apparently to everyone. Most of all I promise that you will marry me, unless you say no of course." He smiled whole heartedly at her. "So what do you say? Do you accept?"

She sniffled and nodded. "I accept. I also promise that I will try not to act as erratically as I have. It was stupid and I hate being embarrassed."

He chuckled. Taking out the ring he reached up with his hand. She slipped hers in his and watched as he put on the ring.

"So it's a promise ring?" She arched her brow as he stood up.

"Yes and also partially an engagement ring. You did accept to marry me."

"The question was if I accepted your promises. Which I did."

"I also promised that you would marry me and so that counts as a marriage proposal." He smirked.

She took ahold of his shirt and pulled him in. She laid her head on his chest. "Does this break mean no sex and no spending time together?"

"We're still going to see each other, we live in the same house. There will be no sex during this time though."

She moved her head to look up at him. "What about kissing?"

He swallowed. "That..that's also off the list."

"Even touching?"

"Depends what kind and you know what kind is off limits."

"I find this frustrating and I don't want it."

He opened his mouth but she raised her hand to stop him and stepped away.

"I understand your reasons." She went over to the suitcase and closed it. "I'll see you around and I hope this break doesn't last too long. You do remember that we're going to have the house to ourselves for a month after the wedding right?"

"I forgot about the honeymoon."

She gave him a small smile. "I won't have to wear regular clothes around the house. You also know how I like to be dressed when I'm alone. Especially when I'm feeling sexy."

"You're going to make this hard on me aren't you?"

"When have I ever made your life easy?"

She walked out the door and out of his love life for the moment.


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