just for a thought

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thought for the day!

Submitted: July 15, 2016

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Friday, 15 July 2016

10:19 PM

I 've been thinking lately about so many things. I am confused and I don't know what to do with my life. I feel like I am stuck in the middle of nowhere. I feel helpless and lonely. Although, I have friends. I still  feel isolated. There are so many things I wanna do but there is something stopping me to do so. I am afraid of losing everything that I have now if I follow what my heart desires. I am imagining what my life be like if I just let go and loose myself to wherever path I go. Sometimes when I am walking alone, I just wanted to go to a different path where I don't know where I am heading to. I feel like there is something missing in me. I am not sure what it is but I feel vague. I am always uncertain of what I want. I am always questioning myself what am I suppose to do with my life. Should I just continue to live like a robot or should I free myself from all the things that are bothering me and just do what I wanted to do. First thing I want to do is to quit the job that is making me crazy and making me feel like I have to struggle and please my co worker. I feel tired of them. It seems like I am worn out from the things they all wanted me to do. How about my feelings and what I wanted to do? I feel like I am a slave of them. They just make policies and protocols and my job is just to follow them. I am sick and tired of following orders. I wanted to be free but I need money. If I don't work then I have no income. I'm sure some people also have my sentiments right now. I wanted to create my own world but how am I going to do that? So for all the people out there who has the same sentiment that I have now. I hope you can relate and maybe we can help each other find our way to the life we are looking for. I am not looking for popularity or something because I am a shy person and I am not good of expressing myself verbally that's why I am doing this composition because I just wanted to share my thoughts. Maybe all of you can share yours as well. Hope we all can be friends and we can let it out through writing anything we wanted to say about the world, the food we eat, our enemies, our friends or anything under the sun. I wanted to build a network or website wherein we can give comments and advice for those people who are losing control of their lives. Yes, that's how I feel. I feel like i am not in control of my life and i am just being dictated by the people around me. Maybe I should listen to myself. Do whatever it takes to make myself be in control of my life. I know nobody cares about all of these because everybody has their own problems and human beings are only minding their own business and do not care about others. Humanities are being wiped out. People just go to work for money and just use you if they needed you. If you are too good and too nice they will step on you. They will make you feel that you are always wrong and they are always right. That's the saddest part of working with these kinds of people. And that's the painful part wherein I feel helpless especially when you are a foreigner in the land you are into. Well, I feel sleepy now.

To be continued....


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