I Should Have Never Went For It

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
taken from my book, "I Gotta Find My Mind"

Submitted: August 04, 2016

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Submitted: August 04, 2016



I Should Have Never Went For It


In the blink of an eye

__I lost my life

Watching the world bein' taken from me

I slammed into my awareness

__that she cannot be mine

What seemed to be my only shot at love

__crumbled before my eyes

____as I realized I was no one

______and nothing to her

When the pain became too much

__I cracked up inside

____and shattered my mind

My heart was being tortured

__in Hell

In my ears I could hear wedding bells

But only for them

And I knew in my heart

__that she was all I had

But saw with my eyes

__that she was never gonna be mine

Thee end of true love forever

Death crept in

__and fed thee agony the fuel it needed

____to corrupt my world

______and keep me hostage

Now all I got

__I don't got, "at all"

She is gone

She has moved on

I gave her ev'ry piece of my past

__that I had

Then flipped out in regret

__and told her to throw it all away

____and she did

Then I went crazy

I forgot all about her

__and everything she means

Dissociated who I was

__as if I was no longer with existence

And when I was revived

__I could not remember who I was

I could not remember her

I could not remember my love fo her

My whole life

__that I thought she was a part of

____was all blocked out of my mind

Like thee ending of a fugue

__I had to start over

I slowly began to get

__pieces of myself back

But the parts that were with her

__is all a blur

Drugs came in my body

__and left my body

But it wasn't until recovery

__did I ever begin to remember

____who I was before she was gone

Before she forced me to realize

__that I did it all wrong

____and that I fucked up

______on growing up



D. L. Cannon

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