50 first dates that never happened

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Chapter 1 (v.1) - Seeing Double

Submitted: August 07, 2016

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Submitted: August 07, 2016



“I wonder what we’re going to learn today in the wonderful world of tap history.”

“Mady your guess is as good as mine. At least it’s a break from choreography.”

“Truer words have never been spoken. Now I get to enjoy my…”

“Here’s your lunch Mady,” a cute guy said as he handed Mady a bag.

“Thanks Christian. Now get lost.”

“Really sis? You’re not even going to introduce me to your friend?”

Mady facepalmed. “ Sam this is my brother Christian.”

“I nice to meet you,” I said, a smile on my face.

“You too. This your first year doing Jersey Tapfest?”

“It is. After my terrible audition in the fall I’ve been taking classes with NJTAP and a summer workshop seemed like fun.”

“Awesome. I guess I’ll see you aroud.”


Turns out that see you around would soon become the second and fourth Sundays of the month after I made it into the New Jersey Tap Ensemble. As I struggled to pick up choreography and get to know my fellow dancers, Christian was by my side. He made me laugh and threw easy choreography into his improv that I could pick up on. Over time I was able to make other friends in the company thanks to our school time performances and my surprise baked goods, but Christian and I were still closer. It took me some time to realize that my feelings for Mady’s brother had bloomed into a full on crush and a sophomore in high school I had no clue how to deal with it. Just seeing him stirred up the butterflies in my stomach and I sometimes couldn’t even talk to him without a blush forming on my cheeks. So what could I do?

Luckily my answer came at the next tap rehearsal. I walked into the studio where Christian and another dancer, Chris, were talking about theater and shows they had either been in or were currently doing, I took this as a good opportunity to enter the conversation and maybe find out something that would get me closer to Christian. Turns out, his school was doing Beauty and the Beast as their spring musical which is my favorite Disney movie. So when the time came my family and I drove two hours away to Christian’s high school to see the show and it was definitely worth it. The sets were amazing, the students were incredible, and I got to watch Christian be a tap-dancing candle.

“Sam I can’t believe you came!” Christian exclaimed as he wrapped me in a hug.

“I wouldn’t miss it. You were incredible by the way.”

“ Thank you. It was nice to put my tap dancing to good use.”

“I don’t know how you did it with those candleabras on your hands though.”

“Awhole lot of practice,” Christian answered with a smile. “ I better go see the family, but thanks again for coming Sam.” He hugged me once more and then disappeared into the crowd. By the time we left I was floating on Cloud 9, thinking that nothing could bring me down. And nothing did have me crashing back to reality until a month later.

April meant that the NJTAP season was coming to a close. So at one of our last rehearsals I went around exchanging numbers with all of my newfound friends to keep us in touch over the summer. The girls’ numbers were super easy to get, but guys like Christian? Not so much. When I asked for his number he smiled and told me to find him on Facebook which wouldn’t have been a problem if I had one. Of course I couldn’t tell him that so I returned his smile and said I would look him up when I got home. After making an account I searched and searched but couldn’t find him so I called it a night. Little did I know that my mom would go on after me and find my crush through his dad. When she asked me to come into her room I couldn’t believe what I was seeing; Christian with an arm around a girl with a similar smile and bangs just like mine. The only difference between me and my twin? She was his girlfriend.

After that I was heartbroken. A girlfriend? How could we have danced together for all these months without mentioning a girlfriend? I was so angry at myself for not only believing Christian liked me, but for not seeing what was in front of me the whole time. When I went to see Beauty and the Beast and talked to Christian after the show, I had noticed the who played Fifi the featherduster glaring at me. At the time I thought nothing of it, but I soon realized that just how this girl and Christian were together in the show, they were actually together in real life. I cried and cried over this realization since I didn’t know how else to handle being crushed by a crush.

Unfortunately, being upset over this was the least of my problems since the next day in school I had a seizure. For fifteen years I was perfectly fine and somehow a combination of heat, stress, and exhaustion caused me to hit the floor. I had to see a neurologist, start taking medication, and figure out how to live my life with this medical diagnosis. It took some time, but four years later I’m happy and seizure free.

You know, I sometimes still wonder if what went down with Christian partly caused me to have this seizure, but the rest of the time I’m happy to still be here living my life. Christian and I were both accepted into the New Jersey Ta Ensemble’s professional company which we take part in when not drowning in clubs and homework at college. Although he’s still with his girlfriend and I’m rocking the single life, we’re still super close. I still see him as my giant teddy bear that cheers me up on a bad day. And he knows that he can count on me to support whatever crazy theater production he’s in next. So what if he’s dating a girl that looks like me? It just made me realize that what doesn’t kill you in life only makes you stronger.


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