Living In Barf

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
taken from my book, "I Gotta Find My Mind"

Submitted: September 06, 2016

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Living In Barf

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Over the wrottin' grape yard

The world around me

__seems to be all covered in barf

But when the lights go out

__there's none of it to see

But that doesn't please me

The barf is still there

Surrounded by throw-up

I just cannot live

So I welcome death into my heart

Stay dead inside

Unable to change my surroundings

__because I'm not in control

The maker of all that is filth

__has enslaved me

____to this vomit-filled world

This vomit-filled life

But I look myself in the mirror

__and say "I don't wanna die"

But how can I make

__what's so wrong

____alright?

Living an eternal punishment

Day after day

Because I can't be forgiven

It doesn't matter how sorry I am

I still deserve this crap

And no amends is repairing the damage

What difference does it make?

Nobody cares about change

Because it doesn't undo what I've done

I'm nothing but a fuckup

Too pissed off at where I'm at

__to have an appetite for lunch

Because everytime I look back

I only see the past

And it's all ruined

And all that every one

__asks of me

____is that I "don't complain"

But even my future

__is nothing but a complaint

Where I'm forced to swim in the puke

__until I drown in it

And that's just how they'll kill me

'Cause it's what the world wants

Just me dead

So I can finally shut my big mouth

And there'll be no one to destroy

And they can clean up this mess

__and pour it all over the next man

____who does unforgivable acts

If only I could afford a gun

I wouldn't have to suffer anymore

But I can't save up that much money

I don't even know who would sell me one

People want me to suffer so badly

__that they are stopping

____my suicide's possibility

And they don't give a shit

__that it makes me wanna kill them

They are preventing that too

So there's nothing I can do

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08-30-'16 #2

D. L. Cannon


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