Conflicted Emotions

I hate you.
I love you.
I don't tremble because I like you.
I CAN'T like you..
You don't belong to me anymore...Perhaps you never did. 
I tremble because I'm scared--Scared of you, what you do to me.
I love you so much,
But hate you to the pits of Hell itself.
I want you in my life, while I want absolutely NOTHING to do with you.
I want you to stick around...but stay as far away from me as physically and mentally possible. 
I don't want you near me--

But I want you to always be there for me.