Letter to MY NEXT

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: November 01, 2016

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Letter to My Next

To start off, I know I am far from perfect. I truly believe that God is the only one that can say that he is. If you believe that too, then we already have good roots to water and plant seeds into. I’m 22. More than half of my friends like to smoke, drink, and pretty much do everything wrong under the sun, I only have a few that choose to live a different way. Me, I’m more in between. I like to smoke drink and have fun, and the other part of me wants to leave that chapter in my life written and done. I have trust issues. I have had people close to me up and leave for no reason or explanation. I am not mad at them anymore because I have done the same, and can’t say that I am different. Yeah I’ve had a couple girlfriends here and there, I told all of them I loved them, and I lied to all of them. I don’t think it is possible to be so young and to tell someone you love them, I mean I know there’s different types of love like how I love my family, but to truly mean it as “I love you, and I will do anything for you to help you grow into the person you want to become” you know, the words a man shares to his wife on the altar. It’s been a couple years since my last relationship. I can’t lie, it took a lot of pain and time to finally move past it. I truly don’t believe that it was love, it was just the fact that I continuously messed up and thought I had unlimited chances, so when I finally heard the words no its done, it was like the lowest of blows. I am in a better place now, and wish her and who she is with the best now. I went a little off tangent, but I guess I was getting to the point that I never truly loved a girl, but maybe if a girl were to do these things, I think I would fall in love with My Next.

 

I am not in this relationship for you, you are not in this relationship for me, we are in this relationship together. WE ARE A TEAM. I have a role to play as a man to make things work, you have your role as a woman for us to prosper. Before we can even start to walk the long path/journey of a relationship, I need to know you. Where were, you born? What’s your family like? What do you like to do? Where are you at right now, and where do you want to be? What were your dreams when you were a kid? Are they still the same? Are you still the same as you were as a kid, what made you change? If you have trouble opening tell me, I have that same problem too. I missed out on a lot of opportunities having my walls up acting like somebody else to be accepted by people. Tell me your dreams. If you had all the money in the world what would your day look like? Do you like to learn? Do you like to create? Do you like living wild, or do you like to play it safe. Getting to know you gives me life, because you are adding to mine. The things that seem stupid to you might be the most brilliant sparks of ideas.

 

I don’t want a relationship because I miss having someone else next to me when I wake up. I don’t want a relationship so that I can flaunt it to the world. I don’t want a relationship because sex is inevitable in one. I don’t want a relationship cause its supposedly the thing your supposed to have, especially as we all grow older.

 

I need a relationship because a man needs a woman. God created the most perfect design, and it becomes even more beautiful when they come together. I need a relationship because I need a woman’s touch. I need a woman to tell me when I’m wrong. I need a woman’s intuition, a woman who has knowledge but has also learned how to listen. I need my rib, because without I am just a lonely man that’s missing something.

 

I need a relationship so I can have someone to be strong for. I want a woman to know she has shoulder’s that she can come lean on. I want a woman to know that she is being heard, and someone to listen to my knowledge and my words. I need companionship. I need love. I need back rubs from working late, and to give them back in exchange because I know in today’s world you had a hard day. No more crying or heart ache. No more childish games, no more pointing fingers to blame. Were a team, so people will treat us the same.

 

I’m not in a rush baby. I’m working on myself to be the best man that I can be to you. I am trying real hard too. I just wish I could talk to you, maybe even get a hug, I just hope I’m ready for you and when the time comes, I won’t be afraid to Love. 


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