Who is the god

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Story of a young boy who is smart, hardworking religious and self oriented. But then the time comes when he find the flaws in his life and found himself in isle of truth.

Submitted: November 12, 2016

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He rushed out from the interview room after confronting the interviewer as though he knew result yet to come. He had answered all the questions correctly in well-mannered way also with some freaky relish but still he was quiet confident to get that job. Closing eyes, he sat on the bench along the Cigarette stall just outside the office. He asked for Clove mixed, his favorite brand barely with a little lust. Those were last months of his college when he started to smoke. He was going to leave his college life forever with his friends and so many things. He believed that the god in the end makes everything perfect for us, he cares for us and look after our life until the death. But his faith didn’t last then after leaving college life. Soon he started to hustle for living. He looked everywhere but no one was ready to give him a single chance. “You have to get above 90% in HSC otherwise you will not get admission in Science.” Father said softly “Nothing to worry Father, The god is with me. I will make more than your expectations” Ranjit replied with pride. That year Ranjit studied quite a lot .He had woken up at dawn for a year. Revised his syllabus so many times .Each Saturday without forgetting he had been praying to lord Hanuman to give him success. Ranjit was luring him in many ways like serving a bath of holy oil and offering holy coconut as a victim. Exams went well for him. Soon the results were out. Lord had casted light of glory upon Ranjit. He got 90 % in HSC. He thanked The Almighty from bottom of the heart. That was happiest day in his life. With this success, his belief in god became even much stronger than ever. Now he was sure that he really do exist and only is invisible. Things then got better .He got Admission in Engineering college not so reputed but still affordable to his family to get their pal technical education. He got so many friends there. He fixed up in the mind that he have to enjoy this college life as much he can because these years are not going to come back. Eventually He get distracted from the studies. He forgot about his Life goal. He gave every and each exam of each semester believing god more and less him. He knew somewhere inside him that god will never leave him. He just prayed and did nothing but enjoyed college life. Results were out. He got Pass class, a very common grade perhaps in now a days less than common. He was still keen on the point that god might will help him if he pray for him .He prayed for 15 days. And then there was a aisle, he found .A aisle to the truth, Why didn’t the god help him? Why he is doing so? Am I not serving him hard? So many questions in his head led him into the aisle of truth. Does really god exist? No, It was me who didn’t work hard when I had to. I just wasted my time in believing god that he will do everything. I studied hard in the Higher secondary so I got admission and no god helped me to get 90% but I did it to myself. There is no god. May be he exist. No, he do exist but they have done their job by giving us our own brain and body to do with our lives. Yes, they have left the world in Natures hand. It is all that the natures do. Death, Birth, growth, floods, earthquakes. And why the fuck I pray to him even if he exist. He is not giving me anything anyway. I have just lurked to study hard and wasted my years. I will not waste my future in this thing now. I will developed myself more than I ever was. Ranjit was in deep of the truth now. ? He then stood up. Readied to find something for living, he faced many interviews with great passion and enthusiasm as though it was the only way to walk on the earth. But his grades stood up as obstacle in his way. Ranjit again started to feel that may be deserting god was terrible mistake. May be he is cursing for abandoning the faith in him. But Ranjit was so ready that he could have defeat any defiance against him. Few days went by and again he approached for another one Interview. Hoping that this might be the one he sided into cubical office. There sat a 50 year old man, in black suit on cushioned chair with his Toshiba laptop on elliptical table in front of him. “May I come in Sir” Ranjit asked politely. “Yes please.” Replied the Interviewer Ranjit walked in the office with usual nervousness. His might-be-boss was staring into his eyes as he went near table. “Sit down please” He said coldly. “Thank you” Ranjit forward his CV towards him. The interviewer started to shuffle pages. “So Mr. Ranjit tell me in short what do you mean by Design engineering” Ranjit became instantly happy because his previous interviewer had always asked about low academics of him first. Then he blurted out “Basically, Design engineering Involves planning and development of product. It comprise of stuctrural analysis and CAD testing to check out various stress failures.” Ranjit answered with high confidence in his voice. For a second he felt he started well and then came series of more questions . He wanted him technically perfect. He was now so confident to give any kind of answer. After 10 minutes of technical round , interviewer asked the question he was afraid of. “Why your marks are too weak Mr. Ranjit” Ranjit got fainted with this question In all previous interviews I had lied to this question answering them haphazardly. I had tell them that I was involved in college politics so didn’t get much time to study. In one interview I told that I have to concentrate on only design engineering so I didn’t study other subjects well. Question was one answers given were many. How could I tell them that I was devotee and always believed in god that he would help me. And then suddenly I realized flaws and I deserted god. How can I say now to this fucking interviewer why I have weak acedemics? And Ranjit startled for a moment and then took a deep breath. “Its because of my over belief in god.” he blurted in second “Oh, Will you please explain?” He asked as coldly before leaning forward and putting his both ankles on table. “Till the higher secondary I was so hardworking about study. I never had a spare time for anything but the study simultaneously I was the greatest devotee of god, I guess. I always prayed him to give me success in 12th. And Yes I got 90 %. But I never realized that it was me not god who studied hard. It took me 8 semesters of college to realize this fact. Then I studied and confronted many interviews without god .Till this moment I am under-success but I think that moment is no long when I would get a chance to prove myself. That’s all Sir.” Ranjit said all this quite slowly and clearly “So, you think god don’t exist?” Interviewer asked “No sir. He exists. He does. But he has nothing to do with our life. He has given us enough to live a life. He has only one work up there to record the accounts of our life means who use how much brain in which way either in good or bad. If there is any god on earth is nature, I suppose.” “It’s really hard to get your thoughts Mr. Ranjit. You don’t believe in god and then you say he exists and tallies our accounts” He said relaxing himself with little change in guise in his eyes. “In short I just want to say believing in god is a waste of time. It’s all up to us what to do and how to do with life.” Ranjit said firmly. Now he was also confused “Still didn’t get you. Anyway you can go Mr. Ranjit. It was nice a meeting. ” Interviewer said forwarding his hand to shake. Bloody hell. All lecture is in vein now Ranjit thought. “Thank you, sir. It was great pleasure” Ranjit said erecting himself. And now there he was. Lightening cigarette in mouth, sitting on wooden a bench. Thinking will he call or not. Of course not . How idiot was I. May be he is thinking now how freak candidate I was? He took last sip of cigarette and crushed with shoe. His life was also going to be crushed like this, he thought for a while. He paid to the stall keeper. Stoning myself with my fathers money what a shame on me. Ranjit took a walk to home. It was almost afternoon. Sun was at peak now. Traffic was buzzing everywhere. There was a beggar with some gods picture in one hand and begging throughout the passages on signal stop. Ranjit thought red light of signal meant signal of business to him . He was begging in front of each car. Some people gave him some people didn’t. Ranjit was enjoying scenario then his phone rang with his favourite tone. He received the call and remained astonished for few seconds. It was his interviewer who called. He was selected as Jr. Design Engineer and was going to join in next week. Ranjit thanked him and put down the call. He never felt such a happy and incredible like he was feeling now. It took minute to calm himself from the gala. Then he found himself near the begger .Signal was green and now begger was waiting for red to continue his “business” through aisles between cars. Ranjit put 100 Rs note on his hands and pat him on back. “There is no god but you and yourself, my friend” said Ranjit and he went off the road. Much more was to come in his life .He had to think about that. He swayed himself into the wind as though eagle lept into the sky. And with this jump God up in the sky wrote a ‘Good` remark in his account .And again rested on his cushioning clouds.


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